This is just a straight up ventilation. Don't mind me at all while i release this stream of consciousness for the coli brehsteins.
While i consider my life to be pretty decent; nothing phenomenal or groundbreaking, i have a roof over my head, access to food that i don't take for granted - and moderate health (no health insurance means i'm a tad more cautious than the next man when it comes to anything physical and i watch what i ingest, though more alcohol than i should. lol).
With that said, i'm quite content with my life. A piece of mind that would be invaluable to any citizen of this society who already has so much stress to deal with.
My only question now is for the inevitable; when is the next big fiasco/dilemma/situation going to come my way? Of course, they say that a part of being a (strong) human being is having a healthy mindset - and that includes, but not limited to being resilient (know that shiit will hit the fan, but how you deal with it is what tests your limits and ultimately gauges your cerebral aptitude and internal attitude; i.e. the quintessential human condition).
Earlier in the year, around New Years Week, i found a 2 dollar bill in my drawer and decided to fold it and place it inside my wallet and, although i like to believe i'm not very superstitioius - decided to keep it nestled in my money clip for... good luck's sake for the hell of it.
Since then, this is what has happened to me thus far:
1. Made a bet with some close friends last August. Biggest Loser type shiit. Pot was 100 bucks a head and weigh in would be January 6th, 2013.
I wasn't very disciplined for the most part. Since i was single at the time, i was enjoying my solitude and kicking it hard every weekend and drinking/eating the most bullshiit of bullshiit.
But come deciembre, i knew it was time to tighten shiit up and hit the gym heavy (which was hard because it was the holidays and that entails holiday parties and food errhwere).
Long story short, the final days of the weight in, i cut some extreme weight, come the day of weight in... there were four guys who participated, but it came down to me and this other cat who lost the most weight.
One person lost a total of 15 pounds.
The other 16.
Guess who won the bet? Yup. 300 bucks in my pocket and i got to keep the 100 i just got back from yanking from the bank. What a way to start the year.
2. Got a raise at work and on top of that, a 500 dollar bonus for helping my boss sell his car. Felt great about that.
3. Back in December, i met a gal at a birthday party (one that i wasn't invited to, but decided to go because my boy didn't want to attend alone).
Any who, when we get there, i noticed at the private area, where the party was being hosted (some posh lounge/club in the bougjie part of town) were a group of extremely secksy women. Long story short, i infiltrated the group of ladies, was able to isolate one of them...
... turns out, she was one of those gals who don't go out much, just focused on work and school and is extremely family oriented; your quintessential good girl in her late 20's (plus, she's thick as hell, just the way i like 'em! The slight extra pounds can we worked out, and she's preparing for a half marathon in June so its feasible. But i'd still admire her with/without. She has a golden heart and the charm to boot - you can tell its genuine when you've experienced enough ratchetness).
And now... she is now my weekend lover.
The saying that, "close mouths don't get fed" never rang truer to me. Mind you it's only been 2 months since we met, every weekend has been an adventure and i'm starting to fall in love with this girl.
4. My grandpa passed away late January. Why do you call that a blessing? He suffered a stroke a couple years back and has been living as a immobile vegetable for the past year and a half. I actually went to visit him last christmas and it pained me to see him in such a paltry/emotionless/stagnant but lifeless condition. For him to kick the bucket gives me relief because he can finally be at peace and no longer live to suffer. That makes me feel good that he is in a greater place doing what he wants to do - his body being in cohesive spirit with his mind - even in the after life.
One more thing that i wanted to mention as well, the boxers fracture that i acquired/self infllicted a year ago... is at its strongest. Which is great news to me because it looks deformed as hell. Aestheically, its no Lyle Lovett, but i'm gracious to have the power back (which, for a drummer like myself, can make or break your abilities).
I dunno... just waiting for the weather to get warmer.
Got some great trips lined up this spring/summer (Vancouver, Chicago, Las Vegas)... what more can i say?
Between now and the end of summer, any thing can happen. Life isn't always smooth sailing, but i'm trying to be a good person, working on my personal development and evaulating the soul as a whole - and hopefully that will help me grow.
I'm 30 years old and feel as though i'm at my peak spiritually, game-tight, abs starting to voluminate a bit (as soon as i get rid of this flab, it'll show. lol)
A better paying job would be exemplary, but i'm grateful to be employed and doing something that allows me to do my day-to-day activities with limited stress.
*sighs*
My family and friends are healthy. Turmoil is limited. My sister's relationship with her boyfriend is quality (at the moment). Mom is happy.
I just hope this economy picks up some more... i want errbody in the club to be eating good and living prosperously.
Pipe dreams it might seem.
But in the right scheme...
We'll see the light beam.
Aight team. I'm out this write speech.
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