Hey breh, I’m so sorry that they put you to the side like that. Bipolar is serious. That needs to be addressed along with the anxiety and ADHD. How do you cope? And to answer your question about masculinity: being a man is about being comfortable within yourself as you strive to be the best with each day. Great men have drive, passion, grace, empathy, courage and humility. How can you maximize those qualities in yourself? And reading into your post more: do you feel like people respect you? Do you feel understood?