Nah, we don't live together. Thing is, I don't have many people in my life, and I've formed such a close connection with this person and I'm struggling to just let go. I feel like I'm not gonna make a connection like that again.
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Nah, we don't live together. Thing is, I don't have many people in my life, and I've formed such a close connection with this person and I'm struggling to just let go. I feel like I'm not gonna make a connection like that again.
Recovery is a 15 round championship fight. You got caught with a right hook and took an 8 count. But..I relapsed this morning at the store with my homegirl who's like family. Then, had my first trigger and brought a weedbhead chick inside my cribWeird as fukk day and got accepted in TCC. Couldn't sleep for two days because of med withdrawals.
Was two months into recovery.
DID YOU GET UP?
As long as you're back on your sobriety path, you can still be the champ. Many people use a temporary relapse to be the excuse to go on a 3 month to 3 year BENDER. Don't make that mistake.
GET UP!
I used to struggle with depression and hopelessness as a young man, all the way into my mid 20s. It was my dirtly little secret, cuz on the outside, I was a confident, successful, handsome man who had the world at his feet.
Meanwhile, I'd hide in my lil studio apartment for weeks at a time, not answering the phone or the door, on some "woe is me" shyt.
I'm 45 now. It can and will get better, but you'll have to do the work and be willing to change. I'll say more about this later if you respond. Gotta run to my meeting.
You said it yourself breh.
Marinate on that for as long as it takes to have an epiphany or two, then ACT on that immediately.
You will eventually have to identify and fill that void yourself (and with your higher power) if you ever want to have a healthy life or healthy relationship.
Simple as that.
Yeah, I'm trying breh. That void is not having many people and close people in my life though. It's been like that from childhood until present. I struggle to form close relationships with people. It hurts, especially when everybody around you can form them type of connections with no problems.
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I used to struggle with depression and hopelessness as a young man, all the way into my mid 20s. It was my dirtly little secret, cuz on the outside, I was a confident, successful, handsome man who had the world at his feet.
Meanwhile, I'd hide in my lil studio apartment for weeks at a time, not answering the phone or the door, on some "woe is me" shyt.
I'm 45 now. It can and will get better, but you'll have to do the work and be willing to change. I'll say more about this later if you respond. Gotta run to my meeting.
Thats honestly the most frustrating part. Because I genuinely believe that but dont know how to get there. And Ive been putting so much pressure on myself to find what works for me. And lately ive been even more lost than I was when I was younger. No passions, hobbies that i dont enjoy anymore, struggle to connect with anything even the people closest to me.
Its like what am I working towards? The answer I guess should be a better me but i dont even know what that looks like? Even when I was in school and working towards finishing I still struggled to like myself and had a hard time valuing myself. Something Ive always had a hard time with. I never really felt valued or wanted growing up. Spent too much time by myself growing up. Didnt really have any friends who werent toxic or didnt took advantage of me until towards the end of HS.
I still have a part-childlike perspective of people and the world. And Im aware mh emotional growth and ability to bond has been stunted. I go to therapy twice a week. Im learning more about myself but I still dont think i know myself that well on an emotional level. I'm very detached. I've kinda lived my whole life in hiding even from myself and that I had to lock myself away in oder to be sucessful and get what I want. But I barely even know what I want anymore.
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Do you drink or smoke? If so, you have to stop.
Do you exercise regularly? If not, you have to start.
Do you eat healthy food? If not, this is your problem.
All of these things will play with your mind enough to have you damn near suicidal. No joke.
Fix the basics, and all that "existential" shyt like the meaning of your life will come to you while you're busy taking care of your temple.
No they cannot. Close relationships are rare, even for confident, self-assured people.
Stop comparing yourself to others. You have to have a sense of who you are and at least ACCEPT yourself as you are today, if you can't get all the way to self-love.
Your struggle is creating a close relationship with YOURSELF.
Until you do that, you won't have the confidence to be vulnerable enough to create close connections with other people. You'll only attract other self-loathing and miserable souls, if anyone at all (and they're usually locked in a basement somewhere).
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Currently at for home since 6 weeks with a burn out from work. Can't stay awake for a whole day anymore. Not taking any kinds of pills because I really don't want to but maybe i'm going to have to in the future.
My mind stays going into overdrive the only time I get it at peace is when I'm reading books.
I'm just tired all the time, I'm pissed that I pushed myself so hard for some bullshyt ass company
My mind stays going into overdrive the only time I get it at peace is when I'm reading books.
I'm just tired all the time, I'm pissed that I pushed myself so hard for some bullshyt ass company