19, 20, 21 years later, I might have finally overcome my ocd.
don't know what happened or how it happened but I am not completely held hostage by the compulsion to look at the time, color of cars, letters in words and etc to validate my obsessions. Also not looking at myself in the mirror all the time on some worrying shyt. Wtf happened?
this reminds me of when I was 15, I started eating normally again instead of being picky eater beyond belief where I starved myself. I was severely underweight and that shyt happened for some years. That shyt may have affected my development. But I'm getting better slowly. That shyt terrorized my life and had me at a stand still where every move I made, I was scared that something bad was going to happen. Anxiety really held me hostage. Just cringing thinking about it. Now it's to live my life without that which will be a huge adjustment.
Either that or someone probably has been praying for me, working magic or whatever. Thank you, thank you, thank you. All jumping on my mattress looking at the clock at 3 in the morning over that shyt.
