Essential The Mental Health Thread

[Pazzy]

In all honesty, life is shaping me to be the strong man that i didnt think i would be. Adversities, hardships, setbacks, failures, heartbreaks, and etc are true test of the psyche. Even though im far from perfect, im slowly getting my act together. Slowly warming up into my hobbies and passions and also better controlling myself, words, thoughts including my anger. Holding myself accountable for myself as i should.

Im not letting anybody but me control me.

 

[Pazzy]

Emotionally i guess i dont know how i feel. I feel nothing right now. However, even when i dont feel great for blank reasons, i dont care enough to talk or want to open about these issues.


Didnt go out to anywhere labor day weekend. Im more interested in creating things that the world hasnt seen or heard before. Im working on writing a rap song for myself. I need to reroute this energy into something that i enjoy. That and drawing.

 

[BaKardi Slang]

Emotionally i guess i dont know how i feel. I feel nothing right now. However, even when i dont feel great for blank reasons, i dont care enough to talk or want to open about these issues.


Didnt go out to anywhere labor day weekend. Im more interested in creating things that the world hasnt seen or heard before. Im working on writing a rap song for myself. I need to reroute this energy into something that i enjoy. That and drawing.

This is me at the moment. I've been depressed/anxious since my childhood (diagnosed at 14, but was showing clear symptoms way before that). It's normalized to the extent to which I can't imagine life without those two issues. I've fully accepted I'll be dealing with mental health issues for the rest of my life, so why even bother discussing it?

 

[NoirDynosaur]

When I was younger as a teenager, when a person would try to start beef with me, I would have the most intrusive violent thoughts of harming them for revenge

This when I used to be more less rational and more emotional

Now, I understand the meaning behind "you are more than your thoughts" Controlling thoughts takes a lot of discipline and regulation. Emotions are just clouds they come and go

If my thoughts weren't regulated, I'll probably be in jail by now

 

[Striving For Greatness]

 

[Coolin']

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[Stoop Kid]

I called outta work on Friday to take a mental health day but ever since then ive just been anxious because I feel like they're gonna give me shyt for calling out on a Friday. shyt sucks man

 

[Canada Goose]

My medication got reduced, as a result, I'm not oversleeping as much. No more late morning naps.



But that's not the reason my meds was reduced, they was reduced because they weren't working Currently I'm taking Rexuti 3MG and Trintellix 20MG.



I'm suffering mental aguish like crazy, obsessive negative thoughts, worrying about future problems, etc. The only improvement in my life is I don't really oversleep anymore.

 

[Monsanto]

I think I went under too many depressive and mania episodes while undiagnosed. My memory and recall have been impaired quite a bit. Forgetting things and having to think on it for 5 minutes or more and still not getting what I wanted to recall hurts.

Aside from that, the pills have kept the depression away since March, and I'll have a mania episode about every other month. Pretty good stats. Still can't believe this is how normal people live.

 

[Givethanks]

Bump


Just a friendly reminder, if you feel like you're going through things. Just remember you're not alone.

Recently found out another friend committed suicide.

I'm not gonna say check on your f iends because men we always say we're ok. But if you're going through something most people who care about you will want to hear what you're going through, don't think you're a bother or they don't want to support you.

 

[Pazzy]

I think we need more spaces to have an open and honest discussion about sexuality without being judged especially for men. Women are allowed to be sexually free and expressive more than men are allowed to be. I also do feel that many people arent having sex like that and thats for a reason.

 

[Pazzy]

And another thing

Figured this would be the place to ask. Anybody has a problem when it comes to focusing when it comes to reading? Like seriously, i cant read a book for longer than 10 pages without getting distracted whether my body starts getting jittery and i feel i have to get up or end up doing something else or falling asleep. I heard that thats symptoms of ADHD.

 

[Pazzy]

Ive never been locked up but i feel like im locked up within myself. just no emotion or cant feel anything at the moment. I know im not content with myself or my life. Theres some issues ive been dealing with internally for awhile now and that shyt might be a bigger problem than i realize. I cant explain it but something isnt clicking. Dont wanna diagnose myself but if its going to help me sit down to read books and focus then it might be time to address it.


Honestly, ive been feeling a certain way for a long time and feel REPRESSED where I feel like im not fully airing out me or expressing myself in the way i want and need to. Maybe im not being the man im supposed to be. I feel trapped, restrained and alone in terms of what ive been dealing with.

Hell. Crazy thing is that i dont even feel like sleeping day away like i did back in high school and throughout the last 20 years but i dont feel being around other people at the moment. I need some internal release or a chance to express this shyt im internalizing. shyt has me just numb, quiet and isolating myself so no one can see the full picture

 

[Mandarin Duck]

How have you guys been?

Career wise. I'm going great. I just got a promotion at my job so I should be happy.

All I feel is lonely. I feel like I should have someone in my life to celebrate this but I don't.

At 33 it feels like the loneliness is only getting worse.

I don't know where to meet friends and have no life outside of work.

 

[Sensitive Christian Grey]

How have you guys been?

Career wise. I'm going great. I just got a promotion at my job so I should be happy.

All I feel is lonely. I feel like I should have someone in my life to celebrate this but I don't.

At 33 it feels like the loneliness is only getting worse.

I don't know where to meet friends and have no life outside of work.

I’ve been told that there’s 4 quadrants in life. Responsibility hobbies self care and socialisation. For me I’ve been trying to get back to hobbies which in turn would invite socialisation. I’ve been to poetry nights and got a couple more this week. Maybe you could try that in your city? Could get you talking about art and politics, maybe a start of reliability?