Yeah, that is kinda why I don't wanna have kids. My mood swings and severe depression can't be good for a child. Bi-polar is hard, both for the individual, and the ones around him or her. I've lost so many girls cuz of my bi-polar. My last girl, who I'm still in love with (my pops was bi-polar and did not get diagnosed until i was in my late teens / early 20's.
i am convinced that seeing his wild mood swings made me suppress my emotions.
i don't let myself get to happy, sad, angry or excited...this was a point of contention between me and my girl for many years.
when we had an argument, i would never get furious.
when something good happened, i would not jump up and down.
i didn't want to let my emotions control me so i put them in a box and kept it moving.
my mom wanted me to see a shrink because she was concerned about me never being angry....i dunno...people are weird.
), said she just couldn't take it. She acknowledged that it was selfish on her part, but it was what it was. I'm pretty stable now with the myriad of drugs they got me on, but sometimes I get into a manic or depressed state. I can hide it at work (most of the time), but I can't hide it from a girlfriend.



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