What is life like years later after someone close to you passes away?

[West Coast Avenger]

This the same fool who made mockery of my BMs death and now he in here looking for sympathy. SMH

...cry me a river fat ass....

 

[International Playa]

My Dad is nearly 60, his mum died 4 years ago, his never been the same. You can tell a part of him died

 

[UberEatsDriver]

Yea

He was robbed and shot

Aight then I understand every inch of your pain.

No on really close to ever got murdered but that’s the worst way to remember the last days of someone.

I think I’ll be more at peace if my dad dies of a medical condition or just of old age only because it’s going to happen.

If he’s murdered I won’t be able to get that site out of my head!

 

[Carlton Banks]

Man I lost my best home girl October 2016. She was pretty much like my last last friend who knew me better than anyone. I mentally block her out most of the time, but when I do remember her I get all sad knowing that no one will ever know me the way she did ever again. No one will ever be as close to me or have as much fun as we did together. I still never visited her grave and I drive past there all the time.

 

[Monsanto]

I think my mind is regressing because of this loss. It doesn't seem real.

 

[Torenko]

I think my mind is regressing because of this loss. It doesn't seem real.

I've seen people mentally snap after a loss. The fact that you have to accept this new reality where this person isn't here anymore. The shyt feels illogical; it's a reality we never even imagined. But it's real. Their gone. My cousin is gone. What do you do with these feelings? Not just sadness, but anger. Anger, and lowkey blame, that really can't be directed at anyone. I guess that's why in times like these we question and maybe even denounce God.

 

[360dagod]

Know a female who child got murdered...

I have a hard time even talking to her...

She is pretty much "numb"...

It's a whole different monster when DNA you created leaves the earth..

And for women, they carried the life for 9 months, so it's on a level even men can't understand..

 

[NobodyReally]

It's still hard to think about them but you always do so you can keep them fresh in your memories. My biggest concern is forgetting my brother's voice and laugh.

 

[Monsanto]

I've seen people mentally snap after a loss. The fact that you have to accept this new reality where this person isn't here anymore. The shyt feels illogical; it's a reality we never even imagined. But it's real. Their gone. My cousin is gone. What do you do with these feelings? Not just sadness, but anger. Anger, and lowkey blame, that really can't be directed at anyone. I guess that's why in times like these we question and maybe even denounce God.

It feels like a continuous nightmare. Lost my grandma and my girlfriend. Just drifting through life at the moment. Food doesn't taste the same, it tastes bitter or as if it fell into the remains of the fireplace.

Nothing to be happy about. Can't blame God but if I could, I would. All I can think about is guilt, nothing I can do about the situations but I can't help but put myself there.

That's the worst part, having this flow of emotions that missed their target. No proper direction to follow a path of alleviation.

Spoke with my therapist but what can she really say that I don't know? Grieve, live life.

I'm just tired of it.

If this seems scattered I'm not all the way composed to keep this in a sensible way.