But this is what you said in another thread...
The chin smiley is fair, completely fair and I stand by both of those posts. I'll level with you too, admittedly my position is changing as of late. It's something I flirted with doing a thread on out of curiosity to see if anybody else might feel or felt similar. That being, a sort of uneasiness with doing IR in consideration of not only the current times we're living in, but even more so because of one's experiences. I still don't have any issue with someone doing IR as there really is no points gained in the grand scheme of things as far as life and death. However, while we're among the living, one would be naive to think that IR isn't a complicated matter to delve into as far as a long term relationship is concerned. Relationships in themselves are complicated, but factoring in dealing with another family, their upbringing, friends, all coming from a white American's background, I just feel uneasy about it as of late.
Still, the major part of why I feel that way as of late too as alluded to earlier, is my experiences within the past year working in an office setting. Working with white women, as colleagues, can do something to you. Office politics can do something to you. There's days when I walk out of my shift with a hatred I can't describe at times. My father always said there is nobody more dangerous than white woman, and I always took that kind of for granted, but the past year has proven his advice to be solid. The funny thing though, is I get along with them, have done an occasional happy hour with them. An hour or so ago one blondie came into my cubicle and looked at my screen playfully. I had earbuds on, working on something when she did so, then she walked away, turned around and looked at me with a playful smile. The girl behind me rolled her eyes as we communicate via the reflection on the window panels between cubes. Breh, on one hand I dig the attention, it's flattering, but I'm leery of dealing with them on a close level as of late. I've never seen so much backstabbing, undermining, etc., in any other work setting than dealing with white women in an office environment. There's more, but that's a major portion why my views are adjusting as of late. It's still not concrete, just a work in progress.
But that's neither here nor there.
"Asian" police officer. 
