Who has issues with their Pops?

MalikReloaded

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Me and my pop reconnected. I got love for him in some ways but, I see him for what he is too. An old broken down man. My mom and my pop had an extra-marital affair which created me. My mom was already divorced. My dad separated. But once I was born, my dad's wife gave him an ultimatum and he chose his family. He had a son (my older half-brother) with his wife. And his mentality was basically this is my real son. "Malik" is my son outside the marriage. I heard him say something along the lines once. I saw him maybe fifteen times growing up. I saw my aunts and uncles (his siblings) more than him. Fast forward a couple years, I graduated college, got into a career, doing well for myself. My half brother ended up in jail for stabbing someone and is still at home at 28, selling drugs and being a delinquent. Now my dad started to come back in my life a few years ago. I appreciate the wisdom he tries to give. Sometimes he'll tell me he's proud of the man i became and i know he's thinking about how much of a fukkup his "real" son is when he says it :mjcry: Like I said he's a beat down old man about to die and at that age they have regrets about life and shyt. I'm not bitter towards him but, I can't get close to him. All I can think about is how he wasn't around much growing up but, now that I ended up being the better of his two sons, he wants to forge a relationship. I used to want his approval growing up, now i could care less. But I do have some love for him.
 

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I don't know if it's issues (it probably is but neither one of us has spoke up) but me and him haven't really been in contact much since I did 4 yrs in the AF and before that I left and moved with my mom when I was 15(I was growing up and me and him just wasn't clicking) .When I was in the Air Force, that was on me...I was young....in other countries...getting drunk..fukking foreign chicks and not keeping in contact with any family. When I got out of the AF and moved back to the US I told him I was sorry for not keeping in contact with him and wanted to build things up. Have I been calling him every week? No, but I try to reach out every now and then and call and see wassup. Don't get me wrong, he's a great father,raised me from 7-15 and always been there when I needed him. The air just needs to be cleared one day I guess.
 

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:ehh: naah. only seen the bum nikka once my entire life.

One of these days I might just go to the town where he lives and pop up at this bar I know he hangs out at. Tell folks I'm his brother when he and they look at us all confused.

might go fukk with his wife out of sheer spite. :shaq:
 

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Me and my pop reconnected. I got love for him in some ways but, I see him for what he is too. An old broken down man. My mom and my pop had an extra-marital affair which created me. My mom was already divorced. My dad separated. But once I was born, my dad's wife gave him an ultimatum and he chose his family. He had a son (my older half-brother) with his wife. And his mentality was basically this is my real son. "Malik" is my son outside the marriage. I heard him say something along the lines once. I saw him maybe fifteen times growing up. I saw my aunts and uncles (his siblings) more than him. Fast forward a couple years, I graduated college, got into a career, doing well for myself. My half brother ended up in jail for stabbing someone and is still at home at 28, selling drugs and being a delinquent. Now my dad started to come back in my life a few years ago. I appreciate the wisdom he tries to give. Sometimes he'll tell me he's proud of the man i became and i know he's thinking about how much of a fukkup his "real" son is when he says it :mjcry: Like I said he's a beat down old man about to die and at that age they have regrets about life and shyt. I'm not bitter towards him but, I can't get close to him. All I can think about is how he wasn't around much growing up but, now that I ended up being the better of his two sons, he wants to forge a relationship. I used to want his approval growing up, now i could care less. But I do have some love for him.
:mjcry:its like no matter how much shyt they did there's something deep down that wants to love them like nothing happened.
 

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I haven't seen my dad in ten years. I love him simply cause he is my dad, but if I heard he died today I wouldn't give a fukk
 

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Petty Vandross.. fukk Yall
I used to be angry as fukk but not anymore.
I saw him about 3 years ago for the first time in 17 years and it was looking in the mirror.
He's just an old dude to me, he used to be superman in my eyes as a kid but he was never there.
A lot of shyt I had to learn on my own or from old heads on the block that kept me out of trouble because they saw potential in me.
After that visit I cried like a baby, I just didn't understand why he didn't want me or why he couldn't apologize for the heartache, I just wanted some answers.
But since then I've come to accept we all have demons and reasonings/circumstances in our life that make us do things. His pops died of cancer at a young age, so he didn't see it growing up so how was he to raise me.
All I know is the cycle stops with me and I will be the best dad if I ever have a seed.
We are not close but I hit him up once in the a blue moon.
Wish we could be close but tis is life
 
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