MenacingMonk
War & Peace
One of these days we're gonna throw it down, I know it; might even be soon. Dude's a straight up waste. I can't believe how much an idiot my mom was when she was young.




Like I said he's a beat down old man about to die and at that age they have regrets about life and shyt. I'm not bitter towards him but, I can't get close to him. All I can think about is how he wasn't around much growing up but, now that I ended up being the better of his two sons, he wants to forge a relationship. I used to want his approval growing up, now i could care less. But I do have some love for him.
OP, It could be worse. Your mother could have married a porn star like mine did.![]()

Dead serious.

naah. only seen the bum nikka once my entire life.
Me and my pop reconnected. I got love for him in some ways but, I see him for what he is too. An old broken down man. My mom and my pop had an extra-marital affair which created me. My mom was already divorced. My dad separated. But once I was born, my dad's wife gave him an ultimatum and he chose his family. He had a son (my older half-brother) with his wife. And his mentality was basically this is my real son. "Malik" is my son outside the marriage. I heard him say something along the lines once. I saw him maybe fifteen times growing up. I saw my aunts and uncles (his siblings) more than him. Fast forward a couple years, I graduated college, got into a career, doing well for myself. My half brother ended up in jail for stabbing someone and is still at home at 28, selling drugs and being a delinquent. Now my dad started to come back in my life a few years ago. I appreciate the wisdom he tries to give. Sometimes he'll tell me he's proud of the man i became and i know he's thinking about how much of a fukkup his "real" son is when he says itLike I said he's a beat down old man about to die and at that age they have regrets about life and shyt. I'm not bitter towards him but, I can't get close to him. All I can think about is how he wasn't around much growing up but, now that I ended up being the better of his two sons, he wants to forge a relationship. I used to want his approval growing up, now i could care less. But I do have some love for him.
its like no matter how much shyt they did there's something deep down that wants to love them like nothing happened.Trust me having no father is better than having a shytty one that adds nothing to your lifeAt least you have a father![]()