part 2
her cousin one day randomly text me,asking me how im doing,i dont know if she smelled blood or someone told her,so she ask me if i wanna hang out for a drink,my dumb ass just heard liquor and says okay,we end up not going to bar,just getting a henny bottle and going to my place,we get drunk,and one thing leads to another and we end up fukking,raw no less
. she confesses to me thats she liked me all along,and that she knows that im still in love with her cousin,and that if i wanna fix things with her she wont get in the way,and wont ever mention it. I believe her,shes a good genuine person inside. I still cant live with that lie,and for some reason i think its a good idea to go to my ex new job after her shift and tell her I slept with her cousin she always suspected wanted something with me
. so i show up and i tell her,and she has this emotionless face to her,and i try and stop her from getting into her car,telling her i can fix this,she replies asking me how am i gonna fix this,how am i gonna unfukk her cousin? she said its one thing to fukk a co worker,(i forgot to mention that we had a 1 month break up about one year into our reationship,and about 2 weeks into our break up i fukked a new bad co worker,she literally walked up to me and asked if its true that i broke up with my gf,i said yeah and by second day we talked i smashed,stayed over the whole night smashing,showed up with her to work with bite marks all on my neck,im a piece of shyt
but in a way this caused my ex to hit me up to fix it,she forgave me,im loyal tho,never cheated or flirted with anyone when we were together) its another thing to fukk her family,she told me to leave her alone and that she hated me,she never told me that before,i was
inside,so i let her in,and then went on a high speed chase on freeway to catch up to her,she pulled in to parking lot,and i kept begging,she then started to cry and begged me to leave hr alone,and i did,i left her alone,I decided to go back to the dark side.
working at a strip club,is the pefect money making environment,and i went all in,i got in touch with my people and had the trap boomin,i was Mr.fukkWithMeYouKnowIGotit, i seriously had people going to club just for me
,not only that but i gave in to the dancers there,before I admitted to my GF i smashed her cousin,i rejected all the advances from dancers,they saw me as the new handsome bouncer that never flirted with any of them,plus he was a d boy and with the shyts. half a year passed and my ex b day was commin up, im getting money,fukking skrippers like nothing,but no mstter what i cant forget her,shes always on my mind,so i decide to go all in.long story short, show up at her job,lookin fresh as a mothafukka draped in burberry from head to toe
and wait to catch her on a lunch break,im walkin around her job(macys) on some sneaky shyt to see where she at,got all the hoes there lookin,i stick out since im tatted up with gold chains on and designer clothes cuz its in the outskirt burbs in SoCal,i find hr from a distance with some inportant lookin white lady givin her some kind of walk around like they was talkin about the lay out of store or some shyt,so no way am i gonna walk up to her infront of her,so i ask a female their if she knows her and around what time she goes to lunch,she tells me,and i wait outside on bench nervous as fukk waiting on her. im sitting there more then an hour,and i finally see her,my heart dropped,shes as beautiful as i remember her
,but shes with a male co worker,dont think much of it tho,he aint got shyt on ya boy. She walks up to me and ask what am i doing here,i tell her i came to see her,i wanna fix it,that i changed alot and things are going good for me and now we can start something good(i dont mention the drug dealing part) she said all that we had is over with and never comming back,i ask her is she seeing anyone and she tells me no,that seeing anyone isnt a priority right now,she just focusing on her,she tells me i been doing a good job of leaing her alone and to keep it that way and tells me se has to go cuz she on lunch and just walks away,i was heart broken.but soooo emotionless. i ended up getting really sick for like a week,and i only get sick once a year so i know it had to do with her,this starts my final transformation to what i am now,a drug and alcohol fueled amorous narcissist .
I had givin up all hope,started drinkin heavily,before work,on my way to work,and at work,did a few lines of coke to even me out on drive there,then did coke with all my customers,back then they would all offer me,patrons and dancers,cuz they never wanted to do it alone after copping from me,and i always said nah,i dont fukk with it,now i was doing rails all night long,plus smoking blunts and drinking, all at work,and still functioning to fukk people up
Its been more then half a year since then,and im only getting deeper and deeper in the wrong shyt,still cant make myself move on,still just hooking up with dancers,even more now that i got fired a few months ago and now im posted at all the clubs and i run into old dancers ive messed with. I cant even talk to regular girls,they seem so boring and stuck up,specially when im like "i fukk way badder bytches on call to be putting up with these regular females that think they the shyt
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I guess my lesson i try and tell my coli brehs is if you got someone good,dont fukk it up,i try and tell the few guys that im cool with,but they just laugh at me on some "you out every night making stacks,fukking skrippers cuz you that dude and im supposed to feel sorry for you?
" steeze,anyways heres a few pics from last night and a few others ive smashed have way more pics somewhere but nothing close to what i should have since i dont take much pics,thanks for takin the time to read this coli brehs
im still hopeful one day she reaches out to me
this was sunday like 5am at jacuzzi room,one is german and black,other is white jamaican and mexican,and last one is mexican and russian,all A1 wet wet
shes jamaican and dminican and i forgot what else,the most amazing ass i ever seen in person,that was on her b day at hotel
my birthday in jacuzzi room,the other one is mexican,with a fat bubble ass,good times that night
more recent,started letting go a bit so gained some weight,she black and guatemalen,we was kayaking off malibu drinking and doing coke next to dolphins
have more somewhere for now this will do,i might post some more depending on how this thread goes
you lucky she wasnt full black and from the islands.
hopefully you learned from this.
