31 at the end of the year. I'll keep it 100 - I do feel a sense of urgency. Not in a sense that I'll be old and flabby and sick therefore unable to get the dimes, dough, etc..
Of course not, I'm a healthy, not fat, smart black male.
But it's more like a "nut up or shut up" way of thinking. All of my insecurities, my hesitations, my indecisiveness, regrets.. They're gone. In my 20s, all that fukked with me heavily. I eradicated those thoughts.
I don't worry about failure in any endeavor anymore. My standards are sky high in relationships. I've dated a cute borderline personality disorder havin' chick for the last two years and I've learned that aiming low can get you killed. Literally.
I got fired from my auditing job of 5 years out of the blue last year. Entrepreneurship is my only option in my 30s. Can't be a wage slave.
Long story short (I'm drinking fat tire in a bar), our 30s must embody the word excellence to the god damn letter.
It's now or never, brehs. I look at my friends now, the ones I once envied..with the marriage and the kids... And I see them becoming a shell of themselves.
They burned out early. I know it can be a bytch sometimes to be 30 in this place, but that's just mostly social pressure and people telling us how we "should live."
In reality, We're free as FUKK. It's no time for a pity party like most 30 year olds, family.
Life is good. Some amazing things are definitely going to happen this decade.