But yeah OP I know about that alcoholic life.
It started when I was in highschool where I used to go to friends houses who parents bought us drinks. I would casually drink at their houses at least twice a month.
After highschool, I drank a lot at friends or events that allowed me too. So I would drink about damn near every weekend because when you have friends who like to drink they do it damn near every weekend if they can, especially if they live in shyt towns with nothing else to do. (that's not alcoholic levels though.)
Once I turned 21 I never looked back. I was able to buy my own drinks now. So I went from drinking to two times a month to every weekend to drinking every day out of nowhere. I started to prefer drinking alone too. I considered everything with a drink ten times better. I'm about to play a game? Why not play games drunk? I'm a watch porn? Why not watch is super drunk? I'm a watch my favorite tv shows or a movie? Why not watch them drunk?? I have friends coming over on a Tuesday to drink so why not have a few drinks with them? I got homework to do? Why not do it drunk? I got a few hours before sleep time? Why not drink to sleep even better? Sunday football? Drink all god damn day!
Then add going out on Fridays and Saturdays going ten times harder by adding shots.
Next thing ya know its 8 months straight of drinking day after day. I'm fat as fukk now with like 80 pounds on me because all I do is eat and get drunk. Next thing you know I'm arguing with my parents getting kicked out. I'm broke as hell because I spend all my money on booze. And the worst thing of all was I was starting to have this weird feeling in my head. It's hard to explain but it was straight pressure around my temple and on top of my head. I felt this weird sensation everyday. I would get tingling sensations in my hand. I had a real scare and went to the hospital a couple of times. The last time I decided the alcoholic lifestyle was not worth it.
I'm 23 now. I still have a weight/food problem but I'm no longer what I consider an alcoholic. I go to a college now and of course when you're on campus you drink often.But I know how to drink now, aka limiting it to weekends. But I've been home for a couple of weeks since its summer break and I have only had a drinking night once. I had those weird problems after I stopped drinking and the fukked up thing was it got worse. But it's been a year since I have had any symptoms.
My advice is to limit your drinking if you can. Drinking less is so much better in every aspect... which includes drinking! Nothing is better than have a night of drinking after working hard and not having time too. Drinking everyday alone at the crib is depressing and lame af when I look back on it. It's cool to do it once in awhile but when you do it daily your wasting money that could have been spent on something else and your wasting your time on a wednesday drunk af on your couch wasting your life away.
Sidenote: as I said when you drink you gain drinking buddies. On top of that, when you get older in your mid 20's it's shocking how much booze is part of a normal persons life. Like there are so many people I know who I thought just chilled out home minding their business. You get to know these people and you find out they don't go a day without drinking. shyts just mindblowing how a majority of adults in America really out here more fukked up in a year than living a sober life.