I think that plays a part but, I know for me once I started puffing herb, that made me look at those situations as stupid. Now, the only time I would feel comfortable to constantly be doing that shyt is if I'm sober and feel like that is my only option at the exact moment, or if the person won't stop, and my respect is on the line. I don't think to just blame your environment is right. A lot of people live in those conditions and don't become cold. It's a choice we choose to make, which comes from feeling like it's what protects us since no one else will. When I let people in, and they saw that I cared, that is when I got shytted on, so I don't let anyone in too deep. Those people came from all types of backgrounds so being from an innercity doesn't mean they are the only ones who act like that. Most people think they are fair people but, they aren't, they just are looking to get something from you, while giving very little in return. It may seem like I don't care but, it's protection. It works so why stop doing it.
The violence is what needs to be controlled because, it makes your life harder, and proves to everyone that you have issues. That gives them ammo to think they are better then you, which is how they feel anyway. I look at it as my coldness is my way of fighting their bullshyt games, and I always win.
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