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I really hate when people say this. There's nothing selfish about suicide. You can't tell someone how to feel or how they feel. Suicide is a lot more than choosing death over your loved ones. It's not so simple.
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It is selfish when you leave little kids alone in this wolrd to fend for themsleves. It's not only selfish it's fukked up.
 

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life is a bytch breh. my only suggestion is to stay away from substances, no nicotine, no weed, no alcohol. an find somethings you like to do that you can look forward to like making beats in your spare time or grilling on the weekends, taking your kids camping, hell look forward to showing them new experiences and just watch them live.

i got a 5 year old nephew and a 3 year old niece i found my tent in the garage and you know how kids like to build pillow forts and shyt, they'd never been in a real tent, it wasnt nothin special so i ask my brother and his wife to let them stay the night one night and i set the tent up in the living room and let them sleep in it. to me its was :manny: but to them it was :gladbron::ooh:.

when i get down and can't get myself out of a funk i try to do something for others or with others.

life's a bytch but dont give up, you might as well live breh, its brehs that try to live that usually end up dying. go to the club, maybe someone will end up shootin it up, hell go to the movies, just drive to the grocery store you might get hit by a drunk driver, just try to go to work everyday you might end up having a heart attack or get cancer or something- like i said most people end up dying just by living, no need to off yourself breh.
 

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at this point nothing makes me happy i always feel like the bottom gone drop out on me i'm in training for a project cordinator job but these white folks at my job are trying their best to sabotage that i been running my security company and have some concerts lined up (boosie,bando jonez) and i spend every other weekend with my kids but i still feel empty as hell me and the misses is off and on fukk man i been drinking and cryin and in the morning i'm just gone check myself in i don't even trust myself right now i just don't know what to do
What event was the breaking point ?
 

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at this point nothing makes me happy i always feel like the bottom gone drop out on me i'm in training for a project cordinator job but these white folks at my job are trying their best to sabotage that i been running my security company and have some concerts lined up (boosie,bando jonez) and i spend every other weekend with my kids but i still feel empty as hell me and the misses is off and on fukk man i been drinking and cryin and in the morning i'm just gone check myself in i don't even trust myself right now i just don't know what to do

That wack ass drink ain't helping you throw that shyt in the trash
 

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Everything is temporary, @nawlinsnfinest Even this hard time is temporary. Sometimes you have to pull over during a bad storm. But every storm comes to an end, and then you get back on the road. Maybe in a new direction.

You don't want to die. You can get help for the pain. Glad you reaching out for help.
 
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I've been at my lowest breh....low as fukk....to the point that I felt worthless but I just think about how much more fukked up my life could be which thankfully it never got that bad

Almost every person I know that committed suicide did so for foolish reasons.
 

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It is selfish when you leave little kids alone in this wolrd to fend for themsleves. It's not only selfish it's fukked up.

suicide isn't more selfish than being a deadbeat parent, or a substance addicted parent or any parent who neglects their child. it is more permanent than the alternatives, the deadbeat make still be alive somewhere in the world but not in contact, the child could grow in to an older person and search for their parent, or the parent could be in jail for life, or addicted for life, the child could grow and witness, experience that--whereas the parent being dead is just that dead..
 

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at this point nothing makes me happy i always feel like the bottom gone drop out on me i'm in training for a project cordinator job but these white folks at my job are trying their best to sabotage that i been running my security company and have some concerts lined up (boosie,bando jonez) and i spend every other weekend with my kids but i still feel empty as hell me and the misses is off and on fukk man i been drinking and cryin and in the morning i'm just gone check myself in i don't even trust myself right now i just don't know what to do
Most definitely could be your surroundings, thought about moving?
 
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at this point nothing makes me happy i always feel like the bottom gone drop out on me i'm in training for a project cordinator job but these white folks at my job are trying their best to sabotage that i been running my security company and have some concerts lined up (boosie,bando jonez) and i spend every other weekend with my kids but i still feel empty as hell me and the misses is off and on fukk man i been drinking and cryin and in the morning i'm just gone check myself in i don't even trust myself right now i just don't know what to do
Get help and get in touch with people who can help. I know it's cliche but it's very true what people say 'suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.'

It's painful and it's a struggle and it feels so immediate like it'll never get better but TRUST ME it does. I've had my problems with depression and even at its worst, I look back now and have joy that I didn't do the drastic move of ending it all. You have people who love you and want to see you overcome your problems, not succumb to them. I can't tell you it might not hurt but it will be worth getting the help you need, I promise
 

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suicide isn't more selfish than being a deadbeat parent, or a substance addicted parent or any parent who neglects their child. it is more permanent than the alternatives, the deadbeat make still be alive somewhere in the world but not in contact, the child could grow in to an older person and search for their parent, or the parent could be in jail for life, or addicted for life, the child could grow and witness, experience that--whereas the parent being dead is just that dead..
I never mentioned any of those other things. :yeshrug:
 

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Ya know since this is the internet we can take the gloves off here ya'll.

No need for the PC bullshyt. Life aint peaches and cream, and sometimes giving up is what it is. All this "suicide is for the weak" or "fight the good fight" is nonsense and candy lane lingo.

There are people out there going thru it. As far as ppl like OP, you gotta let folks know they not alone. We all are hurting, struggling, fighting.

When you make ppl battling with depression feel like its just them thats going thru thoughts like that, you making the situation worse. When in reality, we all are prolly two hopscotches away from where @nawlinsnfinest is mentally right now.

Stay up bro, you not alone. Go seek out some help and jus try and take it day by day, then week by week, then month by month.
 
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