Everyday I wake up hoping it will be my last

[Tha Gawd Amen]

I hope this isn't the Coli's Elliot Rodger

 

[Vandelay]

Best way to overcome uglyness is stacking paper and hitting the gym.

Came in here to say this.


Ugliness isn't a death sentence. For a woman it is...but as a guy you're good.

Hit the gym hard...get your money right and you'll be good. Shyt, your only 21 you still got years of meeting and fukking multiple women. The number of ugly nikkas I've seen fukk certified dimes is ridiculous.

Build up your other traits.

 

[Nature Boy Ric Flair]

Every time I open my eyes in the morning I can't help but cry. Asking myself why am I even still alive? I've had this feeling for many years. I guess I feel safe sharing this on the web knowing that no one knows who I am. Growing up I always knew I was an outcast in my family. Since a young age I knew I was different from my siblings.i am the middle child of 3 boys. I want to give you guys a visual. Off some no homo shyt both my brothers are really attractive. My older brother looks like a mix between Reggie bush and usher. And my little brother looks like a light skin Tyson beck ford. I guess I was hit extra hard with the ugly stick because I look like Forrest Whitaker with a slight hint of Quasimodo. I was always called ugly by my relatives. I was a little kid so it didn't really bother me then, because I only cared about playing games and going outside shyt like that. As I got older I realized how my ugliness greatly embarrassed my parents. I remember sometimes my parents would go to these events and they would bring my brothers along but would always give me the option of staying home while they forced them to go. I think the moment that really hit me the hardest is when I overheard my dad telling my mom he wished she didn't name me after him. And multiple times of him calling me a ugly loser. shyt really messed with my mental. Whenever I would meet girls with my brothers they would always unknowingly kill my self esteem even worse. I would always get the " no way these are your brothers you guys look nothing a like."( and top it all off with the "no offense" as if that made it hurt a little less) I can honestly say I look for every reason on earth to hate my brothers but they literally are the only ones who I believe care about me. Always inviting me out and Stuff like that but what's the point?

I always thought hey maybe if I have a great personality and dress well then maybe just maybes life would be different. Now that I am 21 I've realized it's all just a bunch of bullshyt.

When I was in 11th grade my youngest brother was in 9th. This is going to sound pathetic but whatever. My 13 year old brother is the reason I'm not a virgin. This girl who was a fukking senior wanted to fukk my lil brother so bad he told her if she had sex with me he'd fukk her. And she did. She told me your lucky your brother is hot you would never get this if he wasn't. shyt felt so bad man I literally threw up after I was done.

I've never had a girl friend so everytime there's a family outing. Knowing dam well I don't have one everyone ask me sarcastically. On the outside looking in I guess it's funny but I've had dreams where I killed everyone in my family and it actually felt good. I don't think I'd do it though.

I've tried killing myself twice so far. The first time I took a lethal dose of heroin( it was my first and last time doing it. I just wanted to go out feeling good. I woke up and at least 16 hours had past. No one even checked on me in the time span smh.

The second time I bought a deuce deuce with some bullets. Went home and got ready to pull the trigger but it didn't work. nikka sold me a gun without a firing pin.


No one knows any of this besides you guys. Everyday I wake up and put the gun into my mouth just hoping it would go off. Now I just do reckless stuff wishing I'd die. Go on roller coasters when it's raining. Walking late night in Baltimore while counting money hoping to get robbed and killed. Thinking of just getting a. Lot of oxys and overdosing in the tub


Dam sharing that felt good

IT COULD BE WORSE BREH...YOU COULD BE THIS fukk BOY

WITH THAT BEING SAID...

STOP BEING A bytch WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

 

[Spy]

OP is the same fakkit starving for attention so he puts shyt like this out. These clowns don't want to die, if they did, they'd do it already and stop blabbering about it. OP is a p*ssy, my life's turmoil would have had this dummy self-defeated by the age of 9.

 

[ben anderson]

Dudes telling me to get money and stuff. That won't help the situation. Once you've seen and heard the things I have it will

OP is the same fakkit starving for attention so he puts shyt like this out. These clowns don't want to die, if they did, they'd do it already and stop blabbering about it. OP is a p*ssy, my life's turmoil would have had this dummy self-defeated by the age of 9.

yea because you know you've had a harder life than me. fukk off you stupid fakkit

 

[mtu wa chuma]

Forest Whitaker didn't stay in his bedroom feeling sorry for himself. He put himself out there and and is now an Oscar winning hollywood millionaire.

 

[AllHolosEve]

suicides the cowards way out.. like i told my sister, life aint peaches & cream... you gotta be strong... or you die... Death is easy, life is hard...

 

[shmoney]

If you really want to end it then.......

If not, all you can do is make the best of your day everydat by gaining knowledge and new experiences. Life will be stale otherwise

It's people with all of the things and variety if realtionships you want, and it's still not easy for them either

We care about you @yo moms

why do you think its me? you fukking idiot. im 19 with a budding amateur boxing career. why would i kill myself?

 

[shmoney]

Looks at date of joining.

Looks at rep.


@yomoms stop playing.

@yo moms is 19. i would know.


now fukk out my face you dumb c*nt.

 

[Spy]

Dudes telling me to get money and stuff. That won't help the situation. Once you've seen and heard the things I have it will

yea because you know you've had a harder life than me. fukk off you stupid fakkit

I have bytch boy. If you had a harder life than me you wouldn't be crying like a bytch. A hard life makes you appreciate breathing PERIOD. You're just a p*ssy fakkit.

 

[Vandelay]

Forest Whitaker didn't stay in his bedroom feeling sorry for himself. He put himself out there and and is now an Oscar winning hollywood millionaire.

he has a fine ass wife too.

 

[a murda]

Every time I open my eyes in the morning I can't help but cry. Asking myself why am I even still alive? I've had this feeling for many years. I guess I feel safe sharing this on the web knowing that no one knows who I am. Growing up I always knew I was an outcast in my family. Since a young age I knew I was different from my siblings.i am the middle child of 3 boys. I want to give you guys a visual. Off some no homo shyt both my brothers are really attractive. My older brother looks like a mix between Reggie bush and usher. And my little brother looks like a light skin Tyson beck ford. I guess I was hit extra hard with the ugly stick because I look like Forrest Whitaker with a slight hint of Quasimodo.

 

[Jesus Shuttlesworth]

Dam sharing that felt good

Man get the fukk outta here with this bullshyt. This ain't your personal journal. We are not your fukkin psychiatrist.

No one cares what a pathetic loser you are. Get off the net and get a damn life.

 

[TRFG]

OP, you a cac?

 

[87 others]

Ya'll nikkas retarded. Truth is, most of ya'll are probably depressed losers as well - you just take joy in somebody else's pain. @ben anderson You're probably not as ugly as you think you are, breh. Honestly, I would just take a year, become a hermit, and just do nothing but try to advance your career/education and hit the gym HARD. People tend to look at you different once you're a little richer and bigger. And if they don't, at least you'll be able to knock a nikka out. Sometimes you have to beat respect out of people.