Talk to a professional hotline. Not a bunch of fukkery fiends online. Too many people on here and on the internet in general live off the worst moments in our lives.
Don't do it, reconsider, read some literature on the subject

You don't wanna do that, just think that there's someone out there that got it worst than you. Things can turn around, even in the bleakest of situations.

It May sound cliche. But you won't ever leave that darkness until you acknowledge God on some levelMy brain. I have obsessive thoughts. Been depressed since i was a young kid. Im 28 now.

Weird, I just had that song stuck in my head...Don't do it, reconsider, read some literature on the subject
Ive only went off for like 3 days and started to feel the effects...mostly trembles and like random brain zapsAnd yeah I admit I seek attention when things get bad. I don't wanna end up hurting myself I want help.
Only you have the power to change things. Decide What You Want For Your Life. Life is what you make it. just remember that's a permanent solution to a temporary problemI think this is it for me. Things have just gotten so bad there's really no turning back. I've tried help for these thoughts so many times. I don't know why I'm even posting this. Maybe I'm hoping to talk some sense into myself by writing it out. Idk. I just don't wanna be on this earth anymore. Life is a joke brehs
It's ok breh, you will get through this. Talk to the Lord, he here's you.I think this is it for me. Things have just gotten so bad there's really no turning back. I've tried help for these thoughts so many times. I don't know why I'm even posting this. Maybe I'm hoping to talk some sense into myself by writing it out. Idk. I just don't wanna be on this earth anymore. Life is a joke brehs
Have you tried drug treatment? Honestly you may not feel 100% "yourself" but you may will feel better. Alternatively, things like amphetamines and the like will have you forgetting that you're depressed.My brain. I have obsessive thoughts. Been depressed since i was a young kid. Im 28 now.