Im tired of life

[africngiant]

OP, try to do some reading that can help reinforce what’s already within you. If you need I can reccomemd some great literature that will show you what your purpose is as a frontline soldier and I promise all of this will fall to the side for u.

Thanks for being a fukking adult.

Man posted this at midnight and dudes is tryna clown him…tf

Aye breh, please do I might need it

 

[Ineedmoney504]

Put that number out here for the rest of us... lol

My boy. Where the fukk you been and why ain’t you in my madden league. Now

 

[africngiant]

Move away, adopt a new persona/attitude


In other words reinvent yourself

I’m trying, I just need to get past this hurdle of failure so I can flex on my Pac/Drake shyt.

I’ve glo’d up physically and I’m wiser but everywhere else I’m still behind. I still have the spirit of a damaged man

 

[NoMoreWhiteWoman2020]

Damn.

I feel cursed. I can never win it just seems like most else are happy go lucky while there’s something wrong with me. I never seem to get the benefit of the doubt others get. The people around me’s successes confirm the feeling that there’s something wrong with me. I’ve always been counted out and I continue to keep failing every step of the way. The same spoiled people I validated turn around to shyt on me when I needed help.

First of all breh, breathe.
I’m just trying to help so here goes.
1. How old are you?
2. Why do these friends have so much sway over your life, feelings and emotions?
3. If a friendship isn’t reciprocal then it’s not a friendship. It’s parasitic.
4. Why do you feel like a failure and what have your endeavors been?
5. Shift your outlook. You’re typing this over the internet, you at least have a cell phone and probably other amenities too. You’re not begging for money nor in a mentally incapacitated state. You are not cursed.
6. Stop saying that because it is power of life and death in the tongue. You can speak things in and out of existence with your tongue. “So a man thinketh, so is he”. If you believe you’re cursed then soon enough you will start to operate under that perspective and fukk up and just blame it on that. You’re not cursed, you’re Gods child.

good luck and I’m praying for you.

 

[010101]

contact a professional not the coli*

 

[Mʀ2ᴋDᴇᴇᴢ]

I’m trying, I just need to get past this hurdle of failure so I can flex on my Pac/Drake shyt.

I’ve glo’d up physically and I’m wiser but everywhere else I’m still behind. I still have the spirit of a damaged man

Just keep working on yourself breh, may not be a easy process but you’ll be where you’ll wanna be in future

 

[semicko82]

contact a professional not the coli*

 

[FrontoBama]

Aye breh, please do I might need it

So I’ve gathered that you feel at times like you’re living without purpose and that whether you go left or right, you get smacked down.

This is a relatively short read (about 5 days) and best of all, it’s free lol.

Soledad Brother: The Prison Letters of George Jackson

This brother spent 18-27 behind enemy lines, this was during the 60’s and he was a militant.

The book is a collection of letters he sent home during that time. What I think will hit home for you is the way he interprets his situation throughout. He’s in a similar position; he’s locked in a prism of darkness, flanked by the age old whiteman on one side and the world on the other, both are violently against him and trying to down him, but he realizes that his very living, his very breathing..is what his best weapon is.

You were born to do this

You are not going to be Henry Ford
You are not going to be Elon Musk
You are not going to be Donald Trump

Success in this lifetime will never look like that, the same way our great great great grandfather knew he would NEVER become president or the richest man in the world…The playing field was rigged and their duty, their success was to sacrifice their lives and hold the big metal open door long enough that you and I could slip in and blow it to pieces, even if it means we die in the process…Cuz that’s OUR success in this lifetime…THAT is your happiness, THAT is your fulfillment, THAT is your legacy. You’re not going to be a Fortune 500 CEO because you’re right, you’re skin is too Black and the world that we were born into has been trained to neutralize that and if THEY die in the process, they’re ok with that.. Is it beginning to make sense a little? It’s a war..So if your family tolerates you or not, or if this girl is the right one, or if GTA6 is ever coming out…that shyt is secondary to your bosom interest, your main objective is one thing and one thing only: fight for the future.

No matter if you’re going to school, on the street, starting a business..It all has to be for the war effort..Having a nice house and a white woman with some kids might feel nice, but those who come after you will suffer because you didn’t do YOUR job, just like those before us didn’t do theirs (for a short period of time) and now we have to rebuild. This is the basis of those letters in Soledad Brother.

Understand, I’m a nikka just like everyone else… I like to smoke weed and fukk on luh smeeg jawns just like you probably do..Enjoy your life, no doubt…But what I think will help you feel fulfilled is when you have a clear objective. I REALLY don’t like talking Five Percent shyt on here but in my nation we say that if you put something in the blood, it affects everything you do as blood is the science of the body, the same can be said of this understanding…once you know that this is war and you’re fighting for it, everything you do will have more meaning to you and you will reap the benefits of it..I PROMISE you, God. Everything will fall into place because your natural tendencies that are unique to u and separate from the objective will guide you to college, will guide you to trade school, will guide you to that C++ programming class, will guide you to the gun, whatever your soldier aptitude is, will be used for the cause of YOU …And it will feel exhilarating to know that when you get there, you’re where u wanted to be when u made this thread.

Settle your quarrels, come together, understand the reality of our situation, understand that fascism is already here, that people are dying who could be saved, that generations more will die or live poor butchered half-lives if you fail to act. Do what must be done, discover your humanity and your love in revolution. Pass on the torch. Join us, give up your life for the people.[\quote]


Read the book, God.. i for damn sure didn’t think I was gon type all that lmao.

P E A C E

 

[africngiant]

First of all breh, breathe.
I’m just trying to help so here goes.
1. How old are you?
2. Why do these friends have so much sway over your life, feelings and emotions?
3. If a friendship isn’t reciprocal then it’s not a friendship. It’s parasitic.
4. Why do you feel like a failure and what have your endeavors been?
5. Shift your outlook. You’re typing this over the internet, you at least have a cell phone and probably other amenities too. You’re not begging for money nor in a mentally incapacitated state. You are not cursed.
6. Stop saying that because it is power of life and death in the tongue. You can speak things in and out of existence with your tongue. “So a man thinketh, so is he”. If you believe you’re cursed then soon enough you will start to operate under that perspective and fukk up and just blame it on that. You’re not cursed, you’re Gods child.

good luck and I’m praying for you.

(Sorry, long post)
1. 22
2. These are my supposed day one’s. Imagine a whole group of people turn on you and mock for no reason.
3. My former friends are immature and don’t understand real life. Everyone wants you to move in a fancy, clout seeking manner when you’re black. You have to be 3x better than the cac or nobody cares. Especially if you are 6’5 they will ostracize you from their expectations. Everyone will stare at you all day and want you to tap dance for them. You can’t be normal.
4. I am a victim to the system and I came up from strict expectations that I can’t fill from people on the outside or people in my family. Higher academics struggling, socially struggling. My mental has been drowned to the pits of hell. Is education even worth it in the end when I’ve put so much hope and pride on it my whole life in sacrifice for other pillars of my life. Shyt ain’t even working out like I envisioned in the end.

Being black everyone will put you in a box on the forefront or otherwise you are done out here. Everyone will use you or disregard you. Everyone has already let me know how they feel about me, I just want my redemption story like Pac.

These mfs don’t even know my full story which I keep private. They don’t know half of anything about adversity. They can’t see through my eyes or read people. I just want to talk my shyt, speak up for the underdogs and shut all these bytches up. I fight myself everyday but always put on a smile for others and it gets you fukked over.

(Sorry I don’t know how to quote)

 

[africngiant]

My betrayal is too nuanced to put into the right words. It makes you relive your past and be more mindful of your past behavior and the behavior of others. I was too naive until shyt started to get real. Now I’m just observant and generally angry and frustrated.

 

[africngiant]

So I’ve gathered that you feel at times like you’re living without purpose and that whether you go left or right, you get smacked down.

This is a relatively short read (about 5 days) and best of all, it’s free lol.

Soledad Brother: The Prison Letters of George Jackson

This brother spent 18-27 behind enemy lines, this was during the 60’s and he was a militant.

The book is a collection of letters he sent home during that time. What I think will hit home for you is the way he interprets his situation throughout. He’s in a similar position; he’s locked in a prism of darkness, flanked by the age old whiteman on one side and the world on the other, both are violently against him and trying to down him, but he realizes that his very living, his very breathing..is what his best weapon is.

You were born to do this

You are not going to be Henry Ford
You are not going to be Elon Musk
You are not going to be Donald Trump

Success in this lifetime will never look like that, the same way our great great great grandfather knew he would NEVER become president or the richest man in the world…The playing field was rigged and their duty, their success was to sacrifice their lives and hold the big metal open door long enough that you and I could slip in and blow it to pieces, even if it means we die in the process…Cuz that’s OUR success in this lifetime…THAT is your happiness, THAT is your fulfillment, THAT is your legacy. You’re not going to be a Fortune 500 CEO because you’re right, you’re skin is too Black and the world that we were born into has been trained to neutralize that and if THEY die in the process, they’re ok with that.. Is it beginning to make sense a little? It’s a war..So if your family tolerates you or not, or if this girl is the right one, or if GTA6 is ever coming out…that shyt is secondary to your bosom interest, your main objective is one thing and one thing only: fight for the future.

No matter if you’re going to school, on the street, starting a business..It all has to be for the war effort..Having a nice house and a white woman with some kids might feel nice, but those who come after you will suffer because you didn’t do YOUR job, just like those before us didn’t do theirs (for a short period of time) and now we have to rebuild. This is the basis of those letters in Soledad Brother.

Understand, I’m a nikka just like everyone else… I like to smoke weed and fukk on luh smeeg jawns just like you probably do..Enjoy your life, no doubt…But what I think will help you feel fulfilled is when you have a clear objective. I REALLY don’t like talking Five Percent shyt on here but in my nation we say that if you put something in the blood, it affects everything you do as blood is the science of the body, the same can be said of this understanding…once you know that this is war and you’re fighting for it, everything you do will have more meaning to you and you will reap the benefits of it..I PROMISE you, God. Everything will fall into place because your natural tendencies that are unique to u and separate from the objective will guide you to college, will guide you to trade school, will guide you to that C++ programming class, will guide you to the gun, whatever your soldier aptitude is, will be used for the cause of YOU …And it will feel exhilarating to know that when you get there, you’re where u wanted to be when u made this thread.

This sounds extremely interesting, I’ll start to read it tonight breh

 

[GreenGhxst]

Stop expecting people to stay friends with you because of history

Read some self development books and listen to self development podcast

You have the answers in front of you thanks to the internet, you just have to be willing to put in the work

At this point, it sounds like you'd rather complain on an internet forum versus taking real accountability and inventory of where you are

and what you'll have to do to overcome your obstacles

 

[Family Lives Matter]

Redemption story

Marvel movies have really fukked you nerdy mother fukkers up

 

[semicko82]

My betrayal is too nuanced to put into the right words. It makes you relive your past and be more mindful of your past behavior and the behavior of others. I was too naive until shyt started to get real. Now I’m just observant and generally angry and frustrated.

I was angry and frustrated when I felt the love from my "friends " wasn't being reciprocated, but that's life showing who's down for you or not.

Also human beings are fickle creatures we look out for out own self interest. If you think your people betrayed don't take it personal. The only exception if someone tries to physically attacks you or fukk with your bread then you can go ham, but otherwise cut your losses.

 

[semicko82]

(Sorry, long post)
1. 22
2. These are my supposed day one’s. Imagine a whole group of people turn on you and mock for no reason.
3. My former friends are immature and don’t understand real life. Everyone wants you to move in a fancy, clout seeking manner when you’re black. You have to be 3x better than the cac or nobody cares. Especially if you are 6’5 they will ostracize you from their expectations. Everyone will stare at you all day and want you to tap dance for them. You can’t be normal.
4. I am a victim to the system and I came up from strict expectations that I can’t fill from people on the outside or people in my family. Higher academics struggling, socially struggling. My mental has been drowned to the pits of hell. Is education even worth it in the end when I’ve put so much hope and pride on it my whole life in sacrifice for other pillars of my life. Shyt ain’t even working out like I envisioned in the end.

Being black everyone will put you in a box on the forefront or otherwise you are done out here. Everyone will use you or disregard you. Everyone has already let me know how they feel about me, I just want my redemption story like Pac.

These mfs don’t even know my full story which I keep private. They don’t know half of anything about adversity. They can’t see through my eyes or read people. I just want to talk my shyt, speak up for the underdogs and shut all these bytches up. I fight myself everyday but always put on a smile for others and it gets you fukked over.

(Sorry I don’t know how to quote)

I do agree that as black men we get put in a box more than any other race of men.