In seen 2 tall urban black men @ the water front and wanted walk over and tell them hello BUT...
yeah breh I can tell that thread really hurt u and that wasnt even what I was saying in that thread btw....I was just talking about blk ppl in general from any environment with that mentality. I grew up that environment btw...thats.... HOW YOU took it tho...either way it was inappropriate and I apologized and apologize again....Im working on myself....I need help and when the time is right im going to seek it professionally.
Jayou Ayen
All Star
Be longing to hold hands with brehs, brehs.
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At this point, you're trolling now
Larry Lambo
Superstar
There's places you can have those discussions with brothers, just not in the open streets.
Churches, civic organizations, political rallies.
Would it be cool just to politic with brehs about that in the open, yeah. But most cats aren't on that tip, so you won't get a favorable response most of the time.
Churches, civic organizations, political rallies.
Would it be cool just to politic with brehs about that in the open, yeah. But most cats aren't on that tip, so you won't get a favorable response most of the time.
I have a complex combination of things going on in my life that causes great stress. I cant explain and don't expect y'all to understand or care for that matter ....but this year I've been breaking down...I shouldn't of been on here stating my opinions during that stint. I'm embarrassed by some of the things I was writing. I wasn't all the way there
y'all hate me now but ill win y'all back...I'm a relatively charming guy. I know y'all want to love me again y'all just want the old X that y'all felt for to come back...hes coming.....ill bring him back.......I'm going to do better. I know i been posting unhinged these last couple months. I been going through things mentally. Fighting demons. But I'm going to do better. I'm even considering professional help. When my resources are together I'm going to get a therapist and I promise y'all gonna see a new side of me. The true me. A man with compassion and integrity
You'll get the good without the bad....I just got to escape these blocks in my mind....trying to think my way of this mental purgatory always bring me back to GO on the monopoly board
y'all hate me now but ill win y'all back...I'm a relatively charming guy. I know y'all want to love me again y'all just want the old X that y'all felt for to come back...hes coming.....ill bring him back.......I'm going to do better. I know i been posting unhinged these last couple months. I been going through things mentally. Fighting demons. But I'm going to do better. I'm even considering professional help. When my resources are together I'm going to get a therapist and I promise y'all gonna see a new side of me. The true me. A man with compassion and integrity
You'll get the good without the bad....I just got to escape these blocks in my mind....trying to think my way of this mental purgatory always bring me back to GO on the monopoly board
1970s HeRon Flow
Takin Penitentiary Chances
You need meds
I wrote WAY longer threads in the past and ppl read every word but Im not stupid
I have ALOT of animosity here against me so I guessed I reached that point where its automatic hate on site ....
well they say u either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become a villain and i def out stayed my welcome here...probably should've retired after 2016....im kinda Nigerian status now...
every thread is just going to be like this....i did partially bring it on myself tho soesp with that one thread that got me banned. I went off in that one...I doubt if I can ever win the crowd back. Im charming but not that charming
But Im trying to kill my ego tho. Thats on the serious side. ego will tear u apart on the inside.
I talk shyt to you, but it's all love bro.
Your OP's are structurally and grammatically correct most of the time (which a lot of people here cannot seem to do), and there is always fukkery in your threads. You have some personal issues to work out but I'd be lying if I said you weren't entertaining
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igottabaldhead
All Star
I wrote WAY longer threads in the past and ppl read every word but Im not stupid
I have ALOT of animosity here against me so I guessed I reached that point where its automatic hate on site ....
well they say u either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become a villain and i def out stayed my welcome here...probably should've retired after 2016....im kinda Nigerian status now...
every thread is just going to be like this....i did partially bring it on myself tho so
But Im trying to kill my ego tho. Thats on the serious side. ego will tear u apart on the inside.
I read all of it b, alot of ppl just post on here to get daps. Dont sweat them. I only post what i would endorese in real life.
Anywho, yeah we need to be social with each other more, get to know our fellow blood.
how so?
I just came back from the water front and this was on my mind so I typed it? I thought I was still bushed....I really wasn't even planning on making a thread
Tombstone
The Villain
So you're wanting to reach out, that's good.
I disagree on "we don't get to do that"...plenty of black men chop it up and build. I think the issue with you is, you're carrying the cross while trying to make 'frends' and just connect with people. You say you've been given all this clarity about the structure, like you're seeing the code.
Seeing the code is step one, manipulating the code is the next step.
Not to say ever be apologetic for your thoughts, you writing them down is awesome in and of itself but the fact that you couldn't find the space to approach your brothers means you were leading with the wrong energy, the wrong state, tuned into the wrong station. State control is paramount, with the right state/mental resources you could have been building/networking with these cats instead of subjecting yourself to negativity on the coli.
Meditation is wonderful but It took me a couple years to really realize that I wasn't just supposed to escape, It was entrainment to the void, to peace, to neutrality so as to move forward with the will free of impediments like childhood stuff or 'black plight'. You gotta bring that with you once you come back, you have to learn how to meditate life.
I would say, while still in a meditative state...anybody you see that you would like to connect with, you should pre-meditate the sentiment. You sound like you just wanna show love, you can do that without saying a word or shaking a hand. You generate those feelings for yourself and then approach. You'll be surprised how your interactions with people change when you are actively participating in setting your emotional baseline.
I disagree on "we don't get to do that"...plenty of black men chop it up and build. I think the issue with you is, you're carrying the cross while trying to make 'frends' and just connect with people. You say you've been given all this clarity about the structure, like you're seeing the code.
Seeing the code is step one, manipulating the code is the next step.
Not to say ever be apologetic for your thoughts, you writing them down is awesome in and of itself but the fact that you couldn't find the space to approach your brothers means you were leading with the wrong energy, the wrong state, tuned into the wrong station. State control is paramount, with the right state/mental resources you could have been building/networking with these cats instead of subjecting yourself to negativity on the coli.
Meditation is wonderful but It took me a couple years to really realize that I wasn't just supposed to escape, It was entrainment to the void, to peace, to neutrality so as to move forward with the will free of impediments like childhood stuff or 'black plight'. You gotta bring that with you once you come back, you have to learn how to meditate life.
I would say, while still in a meditative state...anybody you see that you would like to connect with, you should pre-meditate the sentiment. You sound like you just wanna show love, you can do that without saying a word or shaking a hand. You generate those feelings for yourself and then approach. You'll be surprised how your interactions with people change when you are actively participating in setting your emotional baseline.
