In seen 2 tall urban black men @ the water front and wanted walk over and tell them hello BUT...

[scarlxrd]

Why did they let this weirdo come back?

I really don't fukking get it. every time I see him quit and return.

 

[Raid]

I wrote WAY longer threads in the past and ppl read every word but Im not stupid

I have ALOT of animosity here against me so I guessed I reached that point where its automatic hate on site ....

well they say u either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become a villain and i def out stayed my welcome here...probably should've retired after 2016....im kinda Nigerian status now...

every thread is just going to be like this....i did partially bring it on myself tho so esp with that one thread that got me banned. I went off in that one...I doubt if I can ever win the crowd back. Im charming but not that charming

But Im trying to kill my ego tho. Thats on the serious side. ego will tear u apart on the inside.

 

[the cac mamba]

how?

did I mention anything about fukking them in the ass? or giving them a blow job? or jerking them off simultaneously?
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not until now

 

[DrX]

So you're wanting to reach out, that's good.

I disagree on "we don't get to do that"...plenty of black men chop it up and build. I think the issue with you is, you're carrying the cross while trying to make 'frends' and just connect with people. You say you've been given all this clarity about the structure, like you're seeing the code.

Seeing the code is step one, manipulating the code is the next step.

Not to say ever be apologetic for your thoughts, you writing them down is awesome in and of itself but the fact that you couldn't find the space to approach your brothers means you were leading with the wrong energy, the wrong state, tuned into the wrong station. State control is paramount, with the right state/mental resources you could have been building/networking with these cats instead of subjecting yourself to negativity on the coli.

Meditation is wonderful but It took me a couple years to really realize that I wasn't just supposed to escape, It was entrainment to the void, to peace, to neutrality so as to move forward with the will free of impediments like childhood stuff or 'black plight'. You gotta bring that with you once you come back, you have to learn how to meditate life.

I would say, while still in a meditative state...anybody you see that you would like to connect with, you should pre-meditate the sentiment. You sound like you just wanna show love, you can do that without saying a word or shaking a hand. You generate those feelings for yourself and then approach. You'll be surprised how your interactions with people change when you are actively participating in setting your emotional baseline.

u make some great post and have alot of wisdom man....u mustve really been through alot....to know as much as u know

i actually feel guilty after for not doing it...they probably think im foul for that...i feel like a traitor almost...

 

[Aba_juggin]

what makes you wanna go befriend two strangers that don't know you on some


we suffering we gotta get out of this maze


the system has us trapped



nobody want's to hear depressing shyt on the daily. That's why the creation of sites like this and social media is genius. Who the fukk want's to have someone come up to them to have a convo about black plight when you can double tap and move on to something else to take your attention from the thing at hand


come up to me with a business plan or a suggestion to study something to put money in my pockets now we're talking

 

[SunZoo]

u make some great post and have alot of wisdom man....u mustve really been through alot....to know as much as u know

i actually feel guilty after for not doing it...they probably think im foul for that...i feel like a traitor almost...

I appreciate that fam and I certainly have been through a lot, it's only made me more of who I am. I don't often compliment myself but I'll say that I'm proud of me for always having the instinct to react to life's circumstances a little differently than most. It comes natural to me but looking back on things, I could be a monster, I probably should be all things considered. But I've always been a healer, even before I could articulate what that even means for me. So my hardship has done nothing but make it easier to relate to people and spot when/where my presence may be a positive force.

And I think that's what you're feeling, the urge to be a positive force, to help draw the sickness and fear out of your brothers and that's admirable...but you gotta go first you dig?

And no guilt you aren't a traitor you just discovered an invisible chain that you can now pop and break free from. Whatever it is that has you feeling like we as black men aren't allowed to do XYZ, especially positive things, you can at any time decide to drop it, the same way you decided to drop whatever indoctrination that you no longer want a part of.

It's just easier to identify the things we don't like or don't want to participate in when they are external. When they are internal...and we have spent our whole lives externally focused, it's hard to gauge what fears, beliefs, self images that you don't want to participate in any longer.

 

[VelourSocks]

What is good with this forum that it makes some black folks in here start losing their minds

 

[Milomann]

Bruh...

 

[Mr Clean]

powerful posting by @DrX

 

[DreadBrown]

I dunno why but I read the whole thing, it was well written and no lies where told.

@DrX you crazy af but when you right you right my

 

[Ms.CuriousCat]

One of the best threads I've read on here

 

[Robo Squirrel]

I ain't reading all that shyt.

Hold this L for even taking the time to type that







*MF why didn't you just NOD?

 

[ChatGPT-5]

Lack the charisma to meet strangers breh.