In seen 2 tall urban black men @ the water front and wanted walk over and tell them hello BUT...

[Stop_It_5]

I drove

 

[chowism]

@DrX You need your own blog. Don't let the people on this website deter you from posting unfiltered, raw, and honest post's. nikkas like to act outraged when we hear unflattering truth's about our people but fukk pretending it isn't a reality because I hate illusions.

 

[BroolStories]

Part of me wanted him to flip over the tables like the wolf man after seeing a full moon and sexually ravish the white women

 

[Voice of Reason]

That title

 

[Boogie]

I went down to the water front to meditate, listen to 4:44 and watch the beautiful waves bounce up and down. Across from me were the beautiful condos and rich white people on their boats enjoying themselves while my people suffer on the eastside just slowly waiting to die.

I once had big dreams. Mansions, yachts, fast cars, slutty "bad bytches", money,fame but like most... reality set in. Now im just thankful for what I got and to still have my parents and grandparents in my life.

I drove down elmwood ave the other day and seen a black man unkept, talking to himself in front of terrified bougie rich white restaurant. Part of me wanted him to flip over the tables like the wolf man after seeing a full moon and sexually ravish the white women .the other half felt sad because could've very well been him if it wasn't for god, fate, luck? whatever but I could've been him.

America system is a monster. Something so powerful and so great its even destroying them now. They created a beast that they cant even tame. This country is on its last life and thats the lord will. But before it goes I would like to make peace with things u know?

young black men don't really greet each other like that. I've been going through a mental metamorphosis of sorts. "Coming of age" I guess. That time period when u finally grow up and become the real you with no insecurities or fears. I've reached that point life where I can see everything so clearly I feel like Eddy from the movie limitless after he ate the pill.

I'm fully awaken and can see so far past the indoctrination. I don't feel any pressure to conform to society or its rules. I'm talking about black culture rules also. I feel free to be me totally and I'm proud.

Now I just want to get out here and meet black men and talk to them about real shyt. Not bullshyt like hoes, sports, these scumbag entertainers that don't care about us or our plight in these urban prisons. I want to talk to black men about the REAL them, not the front. I want the real them... that's trapped inside the flesh laden shell.

These guys looked around my age late 20's , early 30's. I wanted to just shake their hands like gentlemen and say Hi like how brothers did back in the 1900s when we wore suits and ties everyday. . Maybe even sit down and talk about the reality of the black man in america and talk about our pain and sorrow. I wanted to bond with these brothers man and get to know the real them and get a chance to see their soul.

But we just don't do shyt like that. We hold the pain in until it eat us alive inside. Its like a virus. It starts at the brain and eventually chew its way down to our hearts and eventually engulf our souls. The hurt eats your flesh away until u finally submit and tap.

Well gentlemen to close. Were all going to die some day and soon. were in a vortex that's pretty much slowly wiping us off. Black people are on the clock. Were being exterminated right now, its just so complex and silent we don't know it. I made peace with this. I think us black men need to be nice to each ...yeah yeah yeah I get it, we gotta do the be hard front thing because its our thing but we should treat each other better because where in this concentration camp together stuck on this rock called north america. We should atleast get to know one another. Either way well be better on the other side. We gonna do it the right way next time. Peace

Nobody reading that.

 

[SunZoo]

But Im trying to kill my ego tho. Thats on the serious side. ego will tear u apart on the inside.

The ego is an important part of your mental anatomy...now some nikkas ego's be trippin, word to De La. But it's still vital to your existence and WILL fight for it's life. Even the most 'spiritual' guru you can name who claims to have dissolved the ego...still has an ego, an ego that consists of a muthafukka who thinks he's so far out that he is now ego-less, that in and of itself is just another image.

You understand Hip Hop culture...Hip Hoppas don't kill their ego, they create healthy egos. They initiate themselves, create names, personas to be a sheath for their creativity, their light, their love. The ego is there to give the god within texture. Not navigate life's problems. When we expect the self image (who we THINK we are) we often get into trying to force an ego death.

Much better to create a healthy ego that is aligned with your hearts desires. You want to be a teacher, yes? A guide..a way shower...you have wisdom to impart to people? If you begin to create a self image that is congruent with what you really want out of life, the ego will get out of your way and serve it's original purpose.

 

[Slimkid07]

For some strange reason, I enjoy Dr.X's posts.
Bro, you need to put this energy into a book. Let it be fiction, a memoir... I don't know, something.

Let these demons and trauma work for you.

 

[DrX]

Nothing about it hurt me. You know I fukked with you before but you went too far and even did it again a couple days ago

???

 

[Rice'N Beckford]

This cac

 

[Y2Dre]

At this point, you're trolling now

Yeah he just jumped the shark with this bullshyt.

"I wanted him to ravish the white women"

 

[Tombstone]

???

lets talk about it: Are hood nikkas the biggest c00ns? do they submit to white supremacy more?

 

[DrX]

lets talk about it: Are hood nikkas the biggest c00ns? do they submit to white supremacy more?

i gonna have to re read this one and see where my mind was at breh....but the first one was definitely regretful

 

[newworldafro]

OP you need to upgrade your posting game with the Tales of Carthasis in Buffalo series with some visuals....

Here is a city park on the waterfront in Buffalo...

Wall of gloomy text and no visual to juxtapose the somber mood??? You suppose to be an artist....step your gloom game up breh....

 

[Formerly Black Trash]

This sounds like a skit on a Kendrick album

I can hear the beat in the background

 

[King of Creampies]

I wrote WAY longer threads in the past and ppl read every word but Im not stupid

I have ALOT of animosity here against me so I guessed I reached that point where its automatic hate on site ....

well they say u either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become a villain and i def out stayed my welcome here...probably should've retired after 2016....im kinda Nigerian status now...

every thread is just going to be like this....i did partially bring it on myself tho so esp with that one thread that got me banned. I went off in that one...I doubt if I can ever win the crowd back. Im charming but not that charming

But Im trying to kill my ego tho. Thats on the serious side. ego will tear u apart on the inside.

when are you moving out of Buffalo? when are you starting your business?