loner thread

[Lord Bison]

Im such a screwed up person I tend to drive women away when they try to get close to me.

I find a way or reason to distance myself from them. Or drag them through the mud to the point they hate me and leave me. I have a serious problem with women, I treat them like absolute dog shyt. I’m starting to think I actually hate women outside of carnal desires. So I take this out on women who want more than that from me.

This is due to me being hurt in the past by multiple women that has me on this vengeful path.
I’m hurting people who had no hand in hurting me and I feel immense guilt over it. God do I have some stories.

This is the reason why I took myself out the dating game. I got tired of hurting women who didn't deserve it. Acknowledging this issue you have with yourself is profound breh. People give me shyt all the time because I make a choice to ride dolo. I have no problem at all getting chicks and can get into relationships very easily. But I got fatigued with the whole process.

Ive been ran through the ringer by a handful of chicks. Some very close to me. The guilt you're probably feeling is that even though you know what you're doing ain't cool, you can't change what you saw and what you went through. So keeping that distance is your defense mechanism to protect yourself from another woman doing even more damage to you and you lowkey ain't trying to go through that shyt again.

By making the choice to stop the bleeding, and saving another person from pain by your own wrath, you open yourself to blessings in other areas. I hope you continue on your journey to pick up the pieces breh.

Godspeed brother

 

[Lord Bison]

Pity party. Whack shyt.

Get enough shrooms to commit ego death and all this shyt will stop.

Trust me.

I cant believe I was this unbearable and annoying when I was severely depressed.

This is a good idea. Might go ahead do that trip myself this weekend.

 

[Jay Kast]

This is a good idea. Might go ahead do that trip myself this weekend.

Trust me. Like, for real.

You'll look back at the self you left behind like, "Good riddance, parasite".

My brother, my sister and I all did the ego death trip (7 grams of mushrooms). All of us were severely depressed.

That was a year ago.

I'm back in school. I've applied myself at work and am now earning 25% more than I was before the trip. My brother got promoted, close to 100k a year. My sister is back in school. We're all taking life like its ours because it is!

The longer people wallow in self pity and depression is less time you have to get your shyt together. I'm 35 yrs old. I had been in the same mental state since I was 11 years old to 33 years old....


I wasted 22 years on the dumb shyt that's in this thread and all I had to do was take a couple of shrooms. I hate it that I didnt stumble upon this way earlier, but I'm grateful for the knowledge that someone gave me to allow myself the shedding of debilitating depression.

I know the players in this thread think I'm antagonizing them or being dismissive.

If you paid attention, I gave you the answer to your problems.

Research it. Read peer reviewed scientific journals on the shyt. I guarantee in 25 years.. depression will be a thing of the past.

 

[Sukairain]

I'm single, but I don't understand how you can't have friends. None at all? Not even casual friendships like with your neighbours? You've got to have at least one or two people you can call on if you need help with something or want to discuss something.

 

[50CentStan]

I saw this thread title last night and read it right. Then saw it just now and read it ad "i-owner" thread

 

[WaveGang]

That's impressive breh.



How are you managing to be so depressed and anxious yet you are still able to cold approach?



You have no idea how many we'll functioning adults with no depression or anxiety issues cannot do this simple act. We used to get weekly threads on here about how hard it is for socially adjusted brehs to do cold approaches. Helll, we have a dude on here name pdiddy who approaches 50+ women and not a single one of em wanted to sleep with him.



I think there is hope for you

Thought the same.. He one depressed gyalis ahaha

 

[ImLionyall]

I'm single, but I don't understand how you can't have friends. None at all? Not even casual friendships like with your neighbours? You've got to have at least one or two people you can call on if you need help with something or want to discuss something.

Its pretty easy, especially as an adult. When you don't fit in with your peers growing up, and you learn to be comfortable by yourself at a young age, you find yourself friendless as a young adult. You end up lacking that desire to connect which most ppl have.. I was a wrestling and football jock through middle and high school but was cool with the nerds but didn't fit in with either group....I kept to myself in college then hustled 2 jobs for a few years. I never wanted to hang out with anyone, I didn't need it from them. And no one ever offered. I'm even very close with my extended family but they even know not to invite me to things cuz I say always no, unless its a wedding or something in which they threaten me.


Its worst nowadays because folks are turned off my ppl who have a low sm presence.

 

[JadeB]

I have to bro because I can't get girls any other way due being an aspie with no friends or family. I either do this or have a VERY LONG dry spell

Bruh, I'm aspie too
Ask a breh with Asperger's Syndrome anything!

 

[Sukairain]

Its pretty easy, especially as an adult. When you don't fit in with your peers growing up, and you learn to be comfortable by yourself at a young age, you find yourself friendless as a young adult. It worst nowadays because folks are turned off my ppl who have a low sm presence.

But that's me, I have no social media and I was always an independent child. I get what you mean, it's difficult to make new friends if you have that sort of background. But you should still have one or two childhood friends, your day one's

 

[ImLionyall]

But that's me, I have no social media and I was always an independent child. I get what you mean, it's difficult to make new friends if you have that sort of background. But you should still have one or two childhood friends, your day one's

I updated my post with more info but I see what you're saying. I never had to chance to develop day ones. I changed schools often growing. It was a Afrocentric private school, then a catholic school, then a hood public school (the first time i went to school with my neighbors) then we moved to the burbs (first time I was around yt ppl my age).

Ppl I felt close with either died to gang violence, moved away or we where moving on different paths in life. I was outsider in every environment and trying to constantly fit is exhausting....I didn't realize this until this white washed Korean chick was practically begging to suck my dikk in junior year in HS. I almost fukked that crazy bytch just so her friends would invite me out to their beach housebytch would joke about making an Amerie. I lost out on being invited to a MTV sweet 16 party cuz I started ghosting those ppl.

But I can't blame my personality on my upbringing. Apparently I've always been like this. My parents used to think something was wrong with me because i didn't speak until I was 3. I didn't interact with the kids in prek or kindergarten....all i would do is draw or try to read but I was always aware of the teacher's lessons. That only stopped when I started becoming a class clown, must later in life but that was just me trying to fit in. My grades suffered for it though

 

[MikelArteta]

In life all you got is yourself, find your passion and immerse yourself in it. I remember doing a personality test at work and it said I want to be invited to the party even though I won't intend

I enjoy travelling alone, photography and life in general

never rely on anyone to bring you happiness or make your life feel better

 

[MajesticLion]

woe woe woe

 

[Action Mike]

Can half relate to this thread, but I've got family and a handful of friends to occasionally do things with and relationship experience (even though I fukked that up)

Most time dolo, but recently got a urge to destroy my comfort zone, just need to find the motivation.

My thing is when my time comes, I want to say I least tried my best on this dirt ball we all occupy.

 

[Software]

How so? I doubt somebody is standing behind you with a bat whenever you try chatting up someone new.

Anxiety is for most these brehs

 

[King Poetic]

Reading your comments about what happened

right now, focus on yourself.. job, money and take a few vacations and take some pics and put them on your page of enjoying life and realizing you don’t need any chick to have fun

Also keep up on your medication