Had some discrimination going on at the job, didnt want to report it and tried to self medicate. Think i ended up with a slight substance abuse problem. Ended up catching a DUI, beat the case, but im losing my job. Along with that, my command doesnt want to address the Equal Opportunity complaint i routed up.
Luckily the military has counselors and behavioral health. Problem is they're some bullshyt. They wanted me to meet with a guy 2 hours away through a tele-meeting. He's not in the room.
And if its not him it's white or hispanic people. The whole basis of my issue is racism, so how could a white woman understand my POV? I told that to the counselors and they act like im speaking spanish

Its frustrating not having black counselor.
I just want my issues to be documented in my medical record so i can get the proper disability rating when i get out. They diagnosed me with Major depressive disorder and gave me some meds. I dont take em though because.
I just wanna get right but its fcked up. I want to get the treatment i need, but dont want to do any in-patient time. I dont know how that will affect me once im a civilian, buying guns, etc