I'm 24 years old, still live at home, have a car and currently no job. Been doing the temp job shyt since I was 17 because I used to think it was ight until I hit about 22 (was trying to get hired-on at all those temp-to-hire jobs). This job shyt isn't working out for me, I can't seem to stay at a place for longer than a month now, even though all I do is come in and work (doesn't make sense to me either). At this point, when I get fired, I already know well in advance because I'm so good at sniffing that shyt out now. My managers are always incredibly surprised I don't throw a fit. Anyway, my most recent job got me fukked up. These dudes talking about I haven't been paid in 4 weeks (just started the job and I am well aware of having to be a week in the hole. This has nothing to do with that, I waited my time). So at first it was because it's the end of the year. "Next Friday, the 6th is when you will get it". Of course, the 6th arrives and I still haven't been paid even though I put in over 70 hours my second week alone. Now the issue is, "they don't know my exact start date and my background check came through negative, so they were never supposed to hire me in the first place". Ok...fine...you're fukking morons but fine. Apparently, I'll be getting my shyt on the 13th...next Friday (LOL). Oh yeah, the only shyt on my record are settled traffic cases, marijuana possession (nothing over 3.5 luckily) and an OVI that I just got.
Getting to the point, I'm not interested in what anyone has to say about that^ because people giving me advice on that situation has resulted in nothing but negativity because other people think they know what they are talking about when it comes to my situation (keep trying to tell me I had to wait a week in the hole when that whole shyt passed already). However, I am interested in any advice on what I should do from here on out in regards to this job shyt because like I mentioned...I guess I'm not supposed to be working for someone else in this life or some type shyt. Not really too salty about it, just want to build a solid financial foundation to provide myself with the means of living an independent lifestyle completely void of having to ask anyone else aside from myself for anything. This is why I'm still at home, I don't want to move out just to have to move back a couple years later because I lost my job over me accidentally bringing my fukking phone on the floor when I was never assigned a locker (and did not have a car at the time).
Honestly, I'm truly at a loss here. I don't know what the fukk to do besides continuing to apply for jobs and hoping I find the right one. As far as my "dreams" and shyt go...I mean, I want to race and grand tour. I love music, would love to produce and dj. The racing/grand touring has no option but to wait, that shyt is expensive and it should go without saying I'm dead broke. All I need to do for that is get into a driving school and have someone see my handling and it's a wrap. Just need the money to get there. With music...man, I'd like some equipment. I'd also like to be around people who are more musically inclined to my tastes because my issue with producing is I spend too much time tweaking each sound so it will sound exactly how I want it to. People say that's actually a good thing but they fail to realize that's literally all I do and all I've ever done. I have made one actual edit of a PND song, it was tight as fukk but I deleted it. Everything else I've done was just some BS I chopped and screwed. I have never created an actual beat. I'm starting to think I'm more of an SFX guy. Always loved the loud ass sounds from scary films and stuff like that. For instance, I've attempted to use a sound clip of "two black holes colliding" as a means to set a my atmospheric tone. I could have made something insane with that shyt but when I try constructing a beat...I kinda just sit there not knowing what to do. For example, I'll open Ableton. Open up the drumpad...select ALL my sounds. When I finally pick them all out, I start tweaking them. When I'm done with that, I will attempt to lay something out...usually starting with a sample (if I even find one), hi-hats or a kick drum. The problem lies right here...this part right here is where I get discouraged because I just don't know what the fukk to do. I try to let the shyt flow out of me but because my expectations are so high for other producers when I listen to music, you can imagine how high they are for myself. "This shyt is way too remedial" or "I'm trying to do too much when I don't even know what I'm doing". It's always one extreme or the other: I'm doing too much or not enough.
DJing...I love DJing. As in, I love playing songs I like out loud on cool equipment. But nah, seriously, I'd be an amazing DJ but my problem is I can't stand top 40s, most mainstream shyt and I love unorthodox beats (like the shyt LS.XXXX does, he is my favorite modern producer and an excellent showcase of what my shyt will sound like when I'm finally in the game) and I couldn't care less about what some silly blonde broad wants to hear. I like to think I have plenty of creative ability but I seem to need (hate that word) a patna to bring it out of me. I think what it really is, is a lack of creative direction and wanting to put too much of myself into music and DJing, if that even makes a gram of sense.
Execution. A huge issue of mine is I never execute anything. I never execute anything because I usually lack the funds to do so. If it isn't that, it's something to the effect of me not having any support or a suitable outlet of like-minded individuals. Or...sometimes I lack inspiration.
Damn bro...I kind of lost my point. I just want something better for myself instead of being in this repetitive ass cycle I'm in. Like I said, this job shyt is not working for me.
and don't make moves. Make 2017 your FAIL year. Because if you FAILED that means you actually went out there and did something. Hustle... sell something, talk to people, build a website, start tweeting, invest money and time in your business this year... don't just read about other people who did.
to all my brehs in the thread
so folks have no problem spending money on depreciating assets but won't even consider investing in something that they can eat off of for the rest of their lives.