I'd hate to entice anyone to pick up vices but a shot or two of alcohol or hitting a couple of puffs of a blunt should mellow you out and calm your anxiety. When I attend high stress events or have to see high stress clients, I do the same.
I would find a Toastmasters Club near you to work on your communication and build your confidence there.
And didn't you tell me you lived near a college campus? Look up events there and attend and just work on starting conversations with people (take a shot or two or hit a blunt before you do) and see how that works out. Eventually, if you start attending more events and socializing, you will build up the confidence and not need any of the vices. Also, college campuses have loads of kids with social anxiety as well so you would be in good company practicing with them.
As for being a virgin. If it bothers you so much, then that's what escorts are for. There is no shame in it. We all have our different paths. From a religious standpoint, there is virtue there but that's another conversation.
Mr. Ruthless and Master strategist needs drugs to deal with stress huh?


. If you're a professional, join professional orgs. You can join Black orgs too. shyt I met my fiancée through a black professional org. Orgs and clubs establish that you've got something in common.
. You're at an age where women your age are actively seeking long-term relationships, so you're in luck in terms of finding long-term companionship when you're ready. You should go and explore your options though. However, go interact with women without the aim being getting your dikk wet. You need to see it as a possible side effect of your interaction. Once you interact with them as people and don't let their womanhood distract you, you'll start making connections. Trust me when I say that lots of women are willing to overlook social awkwardness and such when they like you for who you are.



