I just have to become an entertainer. My life is dull and empty.
I think that you need to be yourself and accept yourself first! You are who you are! You can be a great entertainer, but there are women out there who have enough game to see past that because they know that your act is a facade.
Remember this..
You will never please everyone. Even a renaissance man gets curved! That is life! Your life is what you make it. Therefore, when you want changes in your life, then you will find a way. We all do!
JMO...