I feel humbled & came to conclusion just now I'm a idiot and deserve to be in the position I'm in...

[Prynce]

respect fam

I need to wise up and realize that i'm in a good situation. I need to stop stressing. Had to take a step back the last 24

 

[concise]

 

[1970s HeRon Flow]

You need a father figure in your life you acting like a ho

 

[It is a mystery]

This picture is to describe a wall of text. DrX's post is not a wall of text. He clearly broke it up into paragraphs

 

[Deflatedhoopdreams]

DrX's dreams were Big, then reality set in

 

[Deflatedhoopdreams]

No crying in public, just lying to judges.

 

[SymbolicOne09]

Best to you op, we all go through it.

 

[ThaBronxBully]

X Seems Like A Good Dude He Just Be Delusional At Times, Didn't He Say He Had A Small Staff Of 8 People

 

[DIMES]

I'm laying on the bed typing this in the dark,doing some self reflection and really thinking why Im never able to reach where I want to be in life and its because I'm my own worst enemy...I really been thinking about it, im very self destructive...my ego is huge and I refuse to listen to any sound advice because I always feel like I got all the answers and yet I have nothing to show it.

I think its karma for constantly have an nasty attitude, always feeling above ppl. I seen this bro that I went to high school with a decade ago at this fast food joint....and i was cordial and when I got in the car I busted out laughing on some "hahahaha damn that nikka slinging patties" and now that hours past Im laying here analyzing our lives and hes actually WAY further ahead then me...hes making more money than me , just from the fact his wages are constant...he can end up a manager soon and make a middle class salary and buy a house if he wanted...and then become the district manager and see 6 figures...and then become cool with the ppl with power and they might let him buy the franchise or own a piece and dude might become rich....here it is im laughing at a hard working brother when i dont have shyt really myself...the real joke is on me because he got more...now I feel like idiot

but it opened my eyes...maybe my fate is the result of karma and that the lord wont grant me the happiness I seek..... until I finally give up my selfish ways. Im a very selfish person...my attitude is always "fukk u, i need mine asap" from the time I wake up to the time I go to sleep, Im constantly chasing things that I desire ..and when an opportunity comes my way, I destroy because in my mind Im above anything less then what I feel like I deserve. and its that entitlement that set me back....

Maybe the guys on here is right, and I do project failures on other people, esp black men....because I assume everybody desire what I desire, but I don't even know what I desire anymore...I want to be at the top of something...but there's no such thing as the top im finding out...its like a dog chasing its tail...I'm really adding this up...and My self destructive behavior has really destroyed me....I feel humble and feel like I need to really understand that im not better than anybody...and start appreciate the things that I have before I lose them ...I'm really trying to mature into somebody better....sometimes I feel like a sociopath because the lack of emotions and the emptiness i feel....but I don't think a person can ever feel human until they ask for repentance ....

Im really thinking about changing my life....I'm trying to think positive but I have so much hatred and anger inside of me it eats at my soul.....I need to find god .... and what my true purpose on earth is, because it cant be material, because ive been chasing that forever and fail everytime...I think god put my here for something greater...I just have to discover it.

So im gonna take a break from posting for a while ....and just a break in life and do some soul searching....find out who I'm truly am, and cherish the gifts that I do have and use them for good and not to chase dollars...because I don't even know ...I know its a righteous person ....not the guy I am now....
Im in the green now also...so shout out to all the ppl that put me there, I used to be like -1700 at one time...and probably deserved it...idk i need a sabbatical which will be hard but Ill refrain...

this is for whom ever interested .....

sincerely
DrX

It takes a lot to admit faults. I'm proud of your change.


My man, my man I always saw you as a strong individual but too focused on money/worldly matters. It controlled you. There is definitely more to life.

When you die you can't take money with you. Don't get caught up in life to the point you don't who your creator is until it's too late.

 

[Max Power]

Bu.. B...but u said...

http://www.thecoli.com/threads/any-black-man-thats-humble-is-a-fukkin-idiot.404538/

I don't know who's dumber... the OP or the 90+ idiots that dapped that shyt.

 

[PhonZhi]

I coincidintally discovered this song this a.m



The second my radio turned on this morning, Steve Harvey mentioned it and talked about how its one of his fav songs. I googled it then listened to it myself and added it to my playlist.

Deep and motivational song. Just thought id share it

 

[Francis White]

How many times you going to quit you fake fukk? It's just so unreal people fall for the attention seeking piece of shyt. Every other day you post some long post that you grinding too midnight at the library, the next you got a plan to make and then ohh poor me I got to find God and get myself right. Everyone will dap you and say good luck and in a few days you will post again. This time you found the light and you can't be stopped. You are the biggest fraud on this site it's disgusting.

 

[Vice Queen]

Take people on this site seriously brehs.

 

[old_timer]

perhaps your life's purpose is to post heavily on message boards
maybe you should embrace it as your new goal??

i mean, you don't really have the right moves to achieve POTY or WOAT status
but rank-and-file 1000+ a month posters are always in demand
if nothing else, they are acknowledged as "notable members" at the coli
40k, 50k, 60k...even 100k+ posts ??
most of us could never accomplish such a feat

 

[Mason83]

perhaps your life's purpose is to post heavily on message boards
maybe you should embrace it as your new goal??

i mean, you don't really have the right moves to achieve POTY or WOAT status
but rank-and-file 1000+ a month posters are always in demand
if nothing else, they are acknowledged as "notable members" at the coli
40k, 50k, 60k...even 100k+ posts ??
most of us could never accomplish such a feat