Body dysmorphia is real.
I can not honestly say I how my body looks.
1. When I am around other BW I feel smaller than average. I am definitely smaller than the women my age by a mile. I am average height. I don't feel skinny or slim but definitely smaller. The only BW that tend to be smaller than me are shorter generally.
2. In my home mirror I look to be an average size. I have a flat stomach with normal looking legs. Definitely not skinny but not thick either. My butt and chest look balance neither appears overly big. I have noticed my thighs are slightly bigger and my butt is more rounded now that I have been working out consistently.
3. In pictures I look thicker than I see myself especially my chest. My breasts look huge in pictures. I asked my mom if that's how they normally look all the time and she said yes. Damn
I took a picture earlier this week at the gym. I need to start taking more that are better quality but my ass looks crazy. It's ALMOST giving fake but my thighs look bigger too so that helps. I also figure it's the angle.
4. I go shopping with my mom yesterday and while she is trying on clothes I look at myself in the mirror...I look like the gym picture. I had on wide legged yoga pants but the whole bottom looks much bigger than a month ago. Go home and look in my home mirror and every mirror in the house I look small again.
Right now I am an hourglass with slightly broad shoulders. The goal is to tone my upper body and build volume on my lower half. The lower half is already grow much faster than anticipated.
Current measurements:
Bust 35"
Waist 27"
Hips 39.5"
Ideally I want to be at:
Bust 35"
Waist 26/27"
Hips 41/42"
I was going to recomp but honestly I like my current fat levels. I do feel like dropping a few wouldn't hurt but no more than 3lbs Ideally.
I just want my tights to grow to give me the appearance of a bit wider hips.
Hopefully it's giving slim thick. I think so.
Sundress season here I come
