onthereal
All Star
At the tender age of 26 my net worth is $-33,743.17. I don't seek an ounce of pity because I know millions of people have it far worse than I do. But just looking at that number this morning - on the day I received a paycheck from work no less, I realize that as of this moment there is no way I can realistically pay this off. It's just that no one prepared me for this. Not my parents. Not a teacher. Not a mentor. No one. I didn't have a say in going to school. I just thought that's what you were supposed to do. I don't know I'm just kind of numb today.
I'm to the point where I have to choose between rent, food, or loans. As pathetic as it sounds I had to be real with my girl and tell her that I'm not gonna be able to buy her tons of gifts or take her out all the time (fortunately, she understood). I had to break down and ask my parents for help which was also a bit emasculating. And I know a lot of yall don't have that option. I went as long as I could due to pride, but I broke down. They threw me a few bones but that was essentially swallowed by bills.
My pops told me "you should live at home for a year", but I'm not gonna be one of those nikkas that lives with his parents at 30 years old. Would it help? Sure. But I fight with my mom too much to deal with that stress. I'm not 18.
My whole life has become about the dollar. I have no other aspirations anymore aside from making money. I no longer have fun going out or being social (even though I pretend that it's all good). All I can think about is this hole that I've undoubtedly put myself in by doing the right thing and getting a college degree (BA in Journalism - huge L).
Just to note: I work for a fairly large mortgage company as a marketing and design coordinator so I'm not on minimum wage or anything like that. My point is simply that even with a decent paying job, I'm still broke.
As I previously said, I know tons of people, maybe even a few of you Coli millionaires, are going through the same sort of thing.
Time to get my thinking cap on for real. I'm tired of this shyt is taking over my life.
Good luck to anybody else on the grind.
I'm to the point where I have to choose between rent, food, or loans. As pathetic as it sounds I had to be real with my girl and tell her that I'm not gonna be able to buy her tons of gifts or take her out all the time (fortunately, she understood). I had to break down and ask my parents for help which was also a bit emasculating. And I know a lot of yall don't have that option. I went as long as I could due to pride, but I broke down. They threw me a few bones but that was essentially swallowed by bills.
My pops told me "you should live at home for a year", but I'm not gonna be one of those nikkas that lives with his parents at 30 years old. Would it help? Sure. But I fight with my mom too much to deal with that stress. I'm not 18.
My whole life has become about the dollar. I have no other aspirations anymore aside from making money. I no longer have fun going out or being social (even though I pretend that it's all good). All I can think about is this hole that I've undoubtedly put myself in by doing the right thing and getting a college degree (BA in Journalism - huge L).
Just to note: I work for a fairly large mortgage company as a marketing and design coordinator so I'm not on minimum wage or anything like that. My point is simply that even with a decent paying job, I'm still broke.
As I previously said, I know tons of people, maybe even a few of you Coli millionaires, are going through the same sort of thing.
Time to get my thinking cap on for real. I'm tired of this shyt is taking over my life.
Good luck to anybody else on the grind.