I need to vent and be open brehs.
I have some flaws like everybody else like i'm lazy but other than that I'm a functioning person. But I have this one thing that I feel is keeping me back from progressing in life and it's anxiety. I went from a confident and outgoing kid to anxiety filled in 3 years and I just don't get it. I went from being able to speak to anybody and charm them with ease to being some quiet introverted sitting in the corner in his phone ass dude. I don't get it and it's fukking up my ability to progress in life.
I'm drowning in this shyt and trying to explain how I feel to the people I know is impossible. All I get is pray about it or some other shyt. I've invested too much time and effort into myself to let anxiety to keep interfering with the way I think. I used to get excited about new people and new places, now I'm filled with fears and doubts. My relationships with girls get fukked up because of my anxiety I go from confident to doubting myself in a instant.
It's frustrating cause I have all the tools and the knowledge to use them but the anxiety and depression is stopping me from using them.
It's very hard for me to be vulnerable and open but fukk it. I don't want to waste my potential because of some stupid shyt in my head. I have what it takes to go as far as I want in life but I have to get over this roadblock. I have to get rid of that voice filling me with doubt and anxiety. I want to be that person I was before this shyt smh