I Stan For Kei
I would say "needing that push" is a problem. You don't want it that bad if you "need that push." When you want something and I mean really want it then it consumes your thoughts.I hear you but some ppl need that push and someone to get on them if they’re slacking. I knew a dude like that. Being verbally abused brought out the best in him at work. Not saying breh in this thread needs that, but he needs someone irl tracking him.
There's stages to this weight loss stuff. I'll try to make this happen is stage 1 that's pretty much guaranteed failure, I'll do my best to make this happen is stage 2. The people at that stages will still most likely fail but could possibly find short term success. Stage 3 is I will do whatever it takes to make this happen. Once you hit stage 3 maybe you have a trainer for meal plans and workout plans but you don't need them for accountability because you hold yourself accountable.
This is all desire. If you want it bad enough you make it happen and if you don't you fail. You are the one that beats off the cravings and exercises the discipline to eat right. This is one of the most simple things in the world to achieve. If you eat right and maintain a caloric deficit you will lose weight baring you're not in a small percentage of the population with a health issue preventing that. In life there isn't a lot where if you put forth the effort alone you achieve results guaranteed. This is one of those things.