Moms and pops was married before they had me..pops is Nigerian, moms is black American...pop was getting serious money in the 90s, had to go on the run in 97 and that's when I stop seeing him daily at least but we talked and he'd come visit for a few weeks here and there but stayed consistent as far as sending money and keeping me with the latest shyt...then 2003 he got caught and deported back to Africa...haven't seen him in person since 2003 when I was 13...we still talk though and he's been in Toronto since about 2009..I can easily go up and visit but I keep lagging on my passport..think subconsciously its me having a little resentment for losing him...but I gotta get over it and reach out, we not getting any younger