I can't talk to them unless I'm tipsy or drunk in a social setting like a club. Otherwise I can't even have daily convo with them without internal anxiety. The internet don't count. Other races of women? They don't scare me, because I'm not attracted to them like that. So I don't really seek the validation of other races of women. But I care too much about BW opinions of me. I'm doomed to be alone forever....
Do you talk to yourself? Be real, you have hit me up in private.
You're gonna have to find a different way to socialize, this is the issue with the internet and these forums, they make some people introverted.
I have a speech impediment and was recently fired, I know how it goes, people used to laugh at me all the fukking time, especially black women.
Black men used to look down on me because I was in my 30s shopping at Ross and buying bummy clothes and driving a hooptie...
I been through it all and it's still muthafukkers on site that I cuss out but we old men know so they won't do shyt.
But you gonna have to let that go and face your fears, these forums don't help either.
Lower that internet speed just to stop relying on the internet for social interaction so much and find something to do.
You're self-absorbed, a lot like me and it takes a while to get outta it.