The thing I'm seeing about a lot of these 'pick-up' blogs is they seem to associate this term alpha as 'the man to be', and they pretty much describe being a player as synonymous with 'being an alpha.' While they do have a lot of valid advice in attracting women, the problem with a lot of what I start to read on those blogs and forums is that they are pretty much vagina slaves. In other words, they define their manhood based upon how many whores they can slam their johnson into. This is a pathetic metric to base one's manhood upon. Women are a PART of your life. They are not your whole life. These are sort of reverse simps. They do the opposite of catering to what a woman says she wants, which is the simp, but ultimately, they end up catering themselves and crafting their whole persona to what a woman responds to in order to have sex with her. Now there is nothing wrong with changing your mindset to be more successful with women, but when you completely change your personality and pretty much the whole focus on your existence is crafting yourself into an individual who sleeps with as many women as possible, you are headed down an destructive path. For one, when you look back on your life, do you really want your only real accomplishment to be having slept with a lot of women? Instead of actually achieving something, the epitome of your life was popping one off into the vaginas of random whores. That is a pathetic life. Let's not overlook the pregnancies and the resulting child support payments and the possible, life ruining stds. So then, where you should take the 'PUA', "alpha" knowledge is just learning the tactics of how to attract and keep a high quality woman. This is the 'offense' part of your campaign. But to go beyond that and to discard your morals and to completely mold yourself into a new individual whose sole purpose is to have as many whores as possible isn't the way to go.
On the opposite end of the spectrum, you have the MGTOW. These guys have simply checked out of the game. You don't want to end up in this camp either. Like the Bible says, it is not good for man to be alone. But what you DO take from them is you learn defense from them. These guys have been taken through the ringer and have been abused by women and the court system, so they have essentially turned into woman haters. You need to learn the knowledge that they have to avoid being ruined by women, but you have to be careful you don't get into a mindframe where you start women bashing and start to hate women and just completely check out of the game and refuse to deal with women at all.
You have to meld the offense of the PUA and the defense of the MGTOW into your own cohesive strategy and utilize that to find a high quality woman. But with that said, you simply must come to realize that there is MUCH more to life than simply attracting and having a woman, and you must never sacrifice righteous principles in order to obtain women. Women are a PART of your life. They are not your life.

and when i say old i mean like 58
or do I let her go and do her own thing and just hope she still available when I'm ready to wife up.

and got the fukk out.