I still can't seem to get over my ex brehs,deep down I don't want to,it was all my fault,I completely turned a small break I initiated until a clusterfukk of a mistake,I loved this girl and she loved me,I was her first, and she was ready,we had her family's blessing and she knew her role,and she always held me down,always,and now I find myself week in and week out in a constant daze fueled by alcohol and drugs,I'm not an addict by no means,I only feel the need to do those things wen im In the companionship of a woman,I don't know why,I guess that's why I relate to the weeknd's music so much,cuz in his music he's always talkin about that one good girl,and how now all he does is just have sex with random women while drinking and takin drugs,but it doesn't work,same with me,I work at a strip club,and for the very fact that I sell drugs,I'm constantly fukkin strippers or customers after work or during work,while drinking,on coke,Molly's,stoned. I don't expect anyone to feel bad for me,I'm makin a lot of money while partying with strippers that look bad as fukk and they givin ya boi the puss for free,but it's like the more I fall deep into this other world of constant drug and alcohol fueled sex,the more I miss her,the more I feel alone,I feel less alone wen I actually am alone if that makes sense,it's not all bad tho,for the longest i made it my goal to get her back,and that had me saving up everything and hittin the gym daily,even tho she basically said keep leavin her alone like I have been,I was left over with my savings account lookin very very healthy,and with a good foundation to keep my body getting brolic,I don't even know what the point of me typing all this up was,I know eventually I'll get over her,I just have to out myself in a position to meet another great girl,until then I'll keep it ignant and fukk bytches get money,thanks for listening brehs