It honestly sounds like you’re more in your head than anything else breh. Nobody gives a fukk about anyone age like that, people of all ages are in college, and 3-4 years really isn’t shyt in the grand scheme of things. You just gotta put yourself out there breh
Everyone walks a different path, can’t be focused on other people.
And honestly I think joining a frat depends on what type of school you go to. If you want to join for the brotherhood, and net working, sure join. But in my opinion if you are joining for the women/parties stay away from that shyt. That’s not what college is about anyways. women and parties can be achieved with just being in a club with likeminded people/getting to know people in your class. Shieet even the networking shyt can be achieved if you intern over the summer and try to get to know people on campus who work in the department you are majoring in, I also think paying for friends is some lame shyt and that frats take up too much time

my brothers were in frats at their respective colleges and told me shyt is really a huge waste of time. I still thought about rushing one though
Personally, Im going to be at NC State which has less than 10 percent black people and I don’t want to be hanging around all those southern good ol boys. Also will be in nrotc and I’m going to join some clubs focused on minorities so I will probably be to busy for that frat shyt and thecoli anyways.
All up to you breh