so i just got out of a two week stay at the mecklenberg county "hotel" and my main chick was very supportive of the kid n shyt. Basically visited me once and a few phone calls etc..nothing to fancy shawty only my main chick cuz she has been at some point Homey/lover/Friend and that shyt is appreciated but she a dam THOT. Now that aint all she is but she is.she fukks with some cat who from text ive read treats like a cum dumpster and chucks her off. and i have unfotunately found myself in the role of Good/safe guy......because im charming and treat the ladys ladylike....even when im dogging em out.
Now admittedly im a snake charmer, and when i got out shawty went with me to court, took me to see 22 jump street, took me to brazil chima steakhouse smoked me out etc......but did not fukk me?!!? wtf right?.......so i check her phone and yo she basically hitting breh up with the freak shyt i thought was coming to me, i mean str8 up thot shyt.
so my freak bytch bonded me out and sent me letters n pictures n shyt and when i got out n activated my phone freaks texts pouring in from old hoes who miss the dikk. Part of my incarceration was due to my lying manipulating con artist waysand im trying honesty out this time. and honestly im not the big swinging dikk in her life so the means im the "other" guy and i aint with thatshyt at all. So im going to see the freak bytch tonigght cuz seh been begging for the dikk. and when shawty ask ima b honest the question im asking is......should i.....and would you? my bad about the puntuation, i hate posting from my phone.
I hope you know what you're doing. If she's a good woman, you might wanna rethink it. I had to learn the hard way that the grass isn't greener on the other side. I dumped a good woman to chase other women. Looking back, she was the one I needed, I just couldn't see it. Now 5 years later she's getting engaged to some nikka who realized how great she was. I had to take the L.
Went over to her place last night... finally had the talk and just let her know how i felt. And even though it was something that i had to do, i didn't feel liberated at all. It only caused a gash in my heart.
Delivering her the news was tough, and she had questions for me that i couldn't even answer in full because i didn't want to pour salt on an open wound.
Seeing her cry was the toughest cuz she did ABSOLUTELY ZERO to deserve it. It was so sad breghs. As i was telling her about how i felt, why i was falling out of love and that i just couldn't continue, i was literally balling my eyes out... up until last night, it was the saddest moment in my life (right next to the death of my doggie last November, shiit stung irregardless).
Now i feel numb... i don't want to do anything. Trying to stay occupied at work but i can only think about how much i hurt her. The nights when i was out and about, trying to kick game to new females and even being on dates with them while she was at home waiting for me (i even disclosed the fact that i did meet somebody for a brief moment... the same week as our 1 year anniversary. FUKK!!!)... that's the most fukked up shiit and i can't bring it to myself to hurt her any more that's why i had to jump ship.
I know this is normal, now i feel so empty without her... but worse yet is knowing how she feels cuz she was completely head over heals for me; and she legit loved me for me (not the most handsome, rich or status quo filling guy out there; just a regular joe with a couple redeeming qualities that SHE admired).
Y'all wanna hear something unfortunate? When i texted her yesterday afternoon, telling her i'd swing by and talk to her.
Her; Are you coming by to tell me something bad?
Me; Yes
Her: Okay, i just want you to be honest so that i'm prepared.
Turns out, she just thought i was coming by to tell her sorry and that i didn't want to lose her.
Fukk breaghs. i threw her the ultimate curve ball.
When I walked out of her place for the last time, i was so distraught by what i just experienced... i tried to fight back my tears during the trip...
... and i'm doing the exact same thing at work right now.
I know the grass isn't always greener on the other side. I KNOW she's the best thing out there for me and is my exact match; i could live, marry, have chul'dren and die with her. My heart knows this... but my mind isn't corresponding with my feelings. That's why i'm so conflicted. That's why i'm at crossroads with my emotions. Fukk!
Now i'm in the office alone listening to slow jams, reminiscing about her.
I mean bros... when i was sick and ailing from my trip back from the motherland back in February and i was all alone... she was over everyday to take care of me. Bring me soup. Buy me medicine.
It was the greatest gesture a person has ever extended to me...
but the kindest gesture life ever gave me was bringing her into my little world.
I feel like i let you guys down too cuz that's not what this thread is about. I did wrong and i'm not about that life of breakin' hearts.
already feel like that breh. honestly, people only respect and respond to action. everything is all good as long as you keep delivering, or stuff is working for that person. only when you remove those benefits will people understand your value. ole girl really said (during counseling) that in 5 years i had never done her a favor except watch her car one when she went away . she sent me a fathers day text starting out like "i know i'm not allowed to call or text you..." i just broke it down like i'm not doing the same bs song and dance with ya, so this is the new treatment you get. she told me my fathers day present is in the mail, i should get it shortly
My goddaughter's mom (who is engaged to an insecure dude who has put a strain on our relationship) told me she is about to start dating again. She won't break off the engagement just yet and they still live together but if she says "If I find someone I really like then I'll give them my number."
I swear you can't make this stuff up breh. I don't even try to give advice no more I just listen to the craziness.
My goddaughter's mom (who is engaged to an insecure dude who has put a strain on our relationship) told me she is about to start dating again. She won't break off the engagement just yet and they still live together but if she says "If I find someone I really like then I'll give them my number."
I swear you can't make this stuff up breh. I don't even try to give advice no more I just listen to the craziness.
Thats crazy instead of checking dude on his insecurity and/or leaving. She is gonna find another nikka but dont want to lose that inevitable marriage. She will be busting it open on the side when they do marry, if she hasn't already.
Went over to her place last night... finally had the talk and just let her know how i felt. And even though it was something that i had to do, i didn't feel liberated at all. It only caused a gash in my heart.
Delivering her the news was tough, and she had questions for me that i couldn't even answer in full because i didn't want to pour salt on an open wound.
Seeing her cry was the toughest cuz she did ABSOLUTELY ZERO to deserve it. It was so sad breghs. As i was telling her about how i felt, why i was falling out of love and that i just couldn't continue, i was literally balling my eyes out... up until last night, it was the saddest moment in my life (right next to the death of my doggie last November, shiit stung irregardless).
Now i feel numb... i don't want to do anything. Trying to stay occupied at work but i can only think about how much i hurt her. The nights when i was out and about, trying to kick game to new females and even being on dates with them while she was at home waiting for me (i even disclosed the fact that i did meet somebody for a brief moment... the same week as our 1 year anniversary. FUKK!!!)... that's the most fukked up shiit and i can't bring it to myself to hurt her any more that's why i had to jump ship.
I know this is normal, now i feel so empty without her... but worse yet is knowing how she feels cuz she was completely head over heals for me; and she legit loved me for me (not the most handsome, rich or status quo filling guy out there; just a regular joe with a couple redeeming qualities that SHE admired).
Y'all wanna hear something unfortunate? When i texted her yesterday afternoon, telling her i'd swing by and talk to her.
Her; Are you coming by to tell me something bad?
Me; Yes
Her: Okay, i just want you to be honest so that i'm prepared.
Turns out, she just thought i was coming by to tell her sorry and that i didn't want to lose her.
Fukk breaghs. i threw her the ultimate curve ball.
When I walked out of her place for the last time, i was so distraught by what i just experienced... i tried to fight back my tears during the trip...
... and i'm doing the exact same thing at work right now.
I know the grass isn't always greener on the other side. I KNOW she's the best thing out there for me and is my exact match; i could live, marry, have chul'dren and die with her. My heart knows this... but my mind isn't corresponding with my feelings. That's why i'm so conflicted. That's why i'm at crossroads with my emotions. Fukk!
Now i'm in the office alone listening to slow jams, reminiscing about her.
I mean bros... when i was sick and ailing from my trip back from the motherland back in February and i was all alone... she was over everyday to take care of me. Bring me soup. Buy me medicine.
It was the greatest gesture a person has ever extended to me...
but the kindest gesture life ever gave me was bringing her into my little world.
I feel like i let you guys down too cuz that's not what this thread is about. I did wrong and i'm not about that life of breakin' hearts.
Thats crazy instead of checking dude on his insecurity and/or leaving. She is gonna find another nikka but dont want to lose that inevitable marriage. She will be busting it open on the side when they do marry, if she hasn't already.
Well I think her plan is to test the waters and see what's out there before she leaves the relationship. Kinda like a "don't quit your job until you got a better one lined up" type thing.
Obviously the mature thing to do would be to just end it. The wild thing is in two weeks things will be back to normal and she'll be talkin about postin happy pics talkin bout "chillin with my bae" on IG again.
I love having female friends that can be honest with me. It really opens your eyes to how even some of the good girls get down.
She either wanted to fukk or she wanted to girl talk with you about the next nikka who probably hurt her feelings. She was gonna use you as a confidence boost.
She either wanted to fukk or she wanted to girl talk with you about the next nikka who probably hurt her feelings. She was gonna use you as a confidence boost.
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