So brehs heres the story.. Me and my ex was together for 5 years. We broke up in january. First year of the relationship we was great fell in love and was happy. 2nd year She made a turn where she wanted to push my buttons for a reaction being that she wasnt used to guys treating her right and being consistent and showing they care, so i checked her on it and fell back, we fixed it and we managed. 3'rd and 4th year was ups and downs. Then 5th year we deaded it. When i met her she was studying nursing and i was just being a regular street negga at the time.. So seeing her i felt inspired. She graduated as an LPN, i enrolled to pursue a degree as an RN(She was suppose to enroll in a RN program as well but never did). At first she tried to talk me out of it and told me go for computer science since everyone claimed i was good with that and was originally studying it previously.. Then she was some what ok with it.. It till my grades came in hitting a straight 4.0. for 3 semesters straight. Then we took a steady decline in the 3rd and 4th year. It was comments like "you think you all that ? " "You need to focus on buying me a big ass diamond not buying cars every summer" "You didnt do anything yet in life to have a BMW" "you spend too much money on material s**t"
So through out her time at nursing school i was completely supportive of her. She needed books i got them, she needed anything i tried to make it happen. I felt like this was the girl for me. She graduated now its my time to step up i enroll in the beginning the support was there till like i said the grades came about then it just started going down hill, the same support i gave her i didnt even get 1/8th in return. When we got together she was the sweetest thing and i would say around the 2nd year she developed a small attitude and send of hate at life and the world cutting friends off family off and i literally was her only friend and link to the outside world for a good 2-3 years.
So the last year i dealt with no support, I pressed her enough times telling her we need to fix this, i love you i wanna build a life with you. All she did was say ok we will fix this, and gave no effort. There was times she would break down crying saying Shes sorry and she'll change and how she loves me so much.. but it only lasted for the moment. So when we broke up in january i wasnt ready even tho it was a mutual decision and i lingered around still trying to talk to her to fix us. Some days she'd answer my calls, some days she wont, some days shed answer my texts some days she wont. She even went as cold and told me she dont love me any more. So right there i fell back.. Some shyt happened between me and her 3 months later where i ended up by her crib and we had sex. We didnt talk or see each other for another month i ended up by her again and we kissed. She just brushed it off like oh she hasnt had physical contact with someone so long. i just laughed it off. So we saw each other a month later and i just walked away from her like im thru with these games. So last month she calls me and im at the bbq and u hear im having a good time, she said hello and paused and hears the back ground and says called by mistake lol. So last night i got a text saying "why couldn't i be the man she needed ?" I aint even respond nor do i even know if i should. Seeing as how she blocked my number from calling or texting her.
Shes weird cause one minute she'll say i was the best thing ever, then a minute later i'm a piece of $h!t and i act like i don't care. Then one minute she'll say i did so much to make her happy, then its you didnt do SHHH Negga. I always chalked it up as shes that crazy gf, when she acted that way or just acting mad cause she aint getting her way with every situation.