Essential Official Random Thoughts Thread (Ladies only)
I did it. 
Omg I’m a highly chill but neurotic person if that makes sense. I adjust to just about anything without taking too much personally-or - moving around.
With that said I spaz tf out when someone talks to me crazy. Like I will go tf off and if it’s in a professional context I just literally end the conversation because I be like “Imma go off so let’s take a breather and come back another day.” I had to do that to two bosses before including one here, not recently though. A pretty difficult former boss of mine I’m working on a project with and she’s pissing off one of our lead researchers-apparently has now gotten disrespectful when it already was dismissive. Lord. It’s funny how the client is having a great experience and we in here pretty much arguing
The one other person at my job who pulled some shyt like that, I ain’t worked with them since(yt) girl, you do not want to hear my mouth so it’s best we work with others. 
With that said I spaz tf out when someone talks to me crazy. Like I will go tf off and if it’s in a professional context I just literally end the conversation because I be like “Imma go off so let’s take a breather and come back another day.” I had to do that to two bosses before including one here, not recently though. A pretty difficult former boss of mine I’m working on a project with and she’s pissing off one of our lead researchers-apparently has now gotten disrespectful when it already was dismissive. Lord. It’s funny how the client is having a great experience and we in here pretty much arguing
The one other person at my job who pulled some shyt like that, I ain’t worked with them since
(yt) girl, you do not want to hear my mouth so it’s best we work with others.
My sister is in the hospital 
This is literally the only sibling I actually give a fukk about but unfortunately she doesn't really fukk with me. Really it's my parents she doesn't fukk with but I'm just collateral damage. A result of poor family planning really and bad parenting by 4 different people; none of which are me but I'm guilty by association.
I ALWAYS wanted a relationship with her but people put ideas in her head that she has yet to overcome. If I'm in the room she just shrinks away. I hate it. I wish she treated me like she treats her friends but it's not going to happen.
She's always felt like I am the favorite child because I was the "pretty" one. I wish I could deny it but it's true. I am the favorite child. My mom just loved my out the womb and she just never had the connection with her other children.
It's a long story with too many details but her feeling are completely valid.
I have tried to talked to her about having a relationship and she just goes along with whatever you say. She NEVER expresses herself. At this point, I'd be happy if she cussed me out and called me a bytch but it's like whenever I'm around she's dead inside. We use to at least wish each other happy birthday but she can't even bring herself to do that anymore...sigh.
I don't want to cause her any harm so I respect her space. Even her weird ass husband use to be in my DMs so I had to cuss his ass out. I'm can't stand him and his lip gloss wearing ass.
Anyway, she's had several miscarriages. She's pregnant now and had some bleeding heavy enough to have her admitted to the hospital. I think she is having another. She's in Texas so I am deathly afraid she won't receive proper natal care.
I reached out but I technically shouldn't even know she's in the hospital. I DON'T CARE! She's my sister. I should know.
I would literally jump on a plane tonight if she called. I would pay for her to come to Maryland to get better Healthcare if that's what she wanted.
I know she won't return my messages for awhile because that's how she does. But when she does Imma tell her I love her and her feelings are valid and I respect her feelings.
Please don't these racist ass people take my sister. I don't care if she doesn't want to talk to me. I just want to exist and be happy.
I just wish I could make everything right.
I told my dad too. I know she's probably mad as fukk we all know.
There is nothing else to say do at this point. I'm just really fukking sad.
This is literally the only sibling I actually give a fukk about but unfortunately she doesn't really fukk with me. Really it's my parents she doesn't fukk with but I'm just collateral damage. A result of poor family planning really and bad parenting by 4 different people; none of which are me but I'm guilty by association.
I ALWAYS wanted a relationship with her but people put ideas in her head that she has yet to overcome. If I'm in the room she just shrinks away. I hate it. I wish she treated me like she treats her friends but it's not going to happen.
She's always felt like I am the favorite child because I was the "pretty" one. I wish I could deny it but it's true. I am the favorite child. My mom just loved my out the womb and she just never had the connection with her other children.
It's a long story with too many details but her feeling are completely valid.
I have tried to talked to her about having a relationship and she just goes along with whatever you say. She NEVER expresses herself. At this point, I'd be happy if she cussed me out and called me a bytch but it's like whenever I'm around she's dead inside. We use to at least wish each other happy birthday but she can't even bring herself to do that anymore...sigh.
I don't want to cause her any harm so I respect her space. Even her weird ass husband use to be in my DMs so I had to cuss his ass out. I'm can't stand him and his lip gloss wearing ass.
Anyway, she's had several miscarriages. She's pregnant now and had some bleeding heavy enough to have her admitted to the hospital. I think she is having another. She's in Texas so I am deathly afraid she won't receive proper natal care.
I reached out but I technically shouldn't even know she's in the hospital. I DON'T CARE! She's my sister. I should know.
I would literally jump on a plane tonight if she called. I would pay for her to come to Maryland to get better Healthcare if that's what she wanted.
I know she won't return my messages for awhile because that's how she does. But when she does Imma tell her I love her and her feelings are valid and I respect her feelings.
Please don't these racist ass people take my sister. I don't care if she doesn't want to talk to me. I just want to exist and be happy.
I just wish I could make everything right.
I told my dad too. I know she's probably mad as fukk we all know.
There is nothing else to say do at this point. I'm just really fukking sad.
I was just crying earlier this evening from reading an update in one of my Fb mom groups.
Her kid has an extremely rare disease called GM1 gangliosidoses and the life expectancy is 3, just a month after his 2nd birthday they have him at home as he’s dying over the next few days. She has been posting pictures of him as well, like he’s hooked up to breathing tubes because the disease-which has no cure or treatment-basically shuts down your organs and removes your ability to breathe. I can’t even imagine welcoming a child into this world, watching them “grow” their first year of life only to have it quite literally snatched and sucked from them to end in death the second.
Like wtf man
Her kid has an extremely rare disease called GM1 gangliosidoses and the life expectancy is 3, just a month after his 2nd birthday they have him at home as he’s dying over the next few days. She has been posting pictures of him as well, like he’s hooked up to breathing tubes because the disease-which has no cure or treatment-basically shuts down your organs and removes your ability to breathe. I can’t even imagine welcoming a child into this world, watching them “grow” their first year of life only to have it quite literally snatched and sucked from them to end in death the second.
Like wtf man
She lost the baby 
I was just starting to feel normal and they I go an strain myself. At least before I had pain meds. Now I just gotta suffer through it.
Men irritate the fukk out me.
IVS
Superstar
Naw im not in the group chat. Where yall going? Ill try to popout