Essential Official Random Thoughts Thread (Ladies only)

[™BlackPearl The Empress™]

I was so not ready for this man to switch up on me. Breh doesn't know all he has to do is ask and I'll let his fine ass put me through every mattress in his house.


Smash. Wife. Hold hands. Drinking bath water.

I feel I missed something. I am normally super observant. How did I miss this? He gave me nothing. NOTHING. Not a flirt. Not a slight touch. NOTHING. Not a slightly inappropriate comment. NOTHING.

Most men when they want you they have this little glimmer in their eyes. No glimmer. Nope. Maybe it's there but because it's been so long I just assumed it would never be.

So super respectful for YEARS. I have probably never met such a considerate person.

I am not use to being wrong about people EVER. I hope he's not embarrassed. I need that follow through. Lol

I keep replaying things in my head looking for the prior clue. I can't think of 1.

But the ball is in his court. I left the door open. I am an extremely direct communicator and my confidence is as big as a mountain. But I have to remember 99% of people are not on that and have to process their stuff. It's not easy being vulnerable. Imma give it space. I don't want to be pushy.

Or, maybe I'm wrong now and misinterpreting. I doubt it.

 

[Gloxina]

I was so not ready for this man to switch up on me. Breh doesn't know all he has to do is ask and I'll let his fine ass put me through every mattress in his house.


Smash. Wife. Hold hands. Drinking bath water.

I feel I missed something. I am normally super observant. How did I miss this? He gave me nothing. NOTHING. Not a flirt. Not a slight touch. NOTHING. Not a slightly inappropriate comment. NOTHING.

Most men when they want you they have this little glimmer in their eyes. No glimmer. Nope. Maybe it's there but because it's been so long I just assumed it would never be.

So super respectful for YEARS. I have probably have never met such a considerate person.

I am not use to being wrong about people EVER. I hope he's not embarrassed. I need that follow through. Lol

I keep replaying things in my head looking for the prior clue. I can't think of 1.

But the ball is in his court. I am an extremely direct communicator and my confidence is as big as a mountain. But I have to remember 99% of people are not on that and have to process their stuff. It's not easy being vulnerable. Imma give it space. I don't want to be pushy.

Or, maybe I'm wrong now and misinterpreting. I doubt it.

Gotta ask is he a Virgo ? Lol

This only happens to me with those men and I don’t get it lol

 

[™BlackPearl The Empress™]

Gotta ask is he a Virgo ? Lol

This only happens to me with those men and I don’t get it lol

I have no idea. But I normally have a super high level of empathy so I can pickup on things like that even if people are trying to hide it.

I feel like there is something I specifically did that flipped the switch at the first introduction. I have had men "in love" with me who didn't do what he did. Once I fully sobered up I remember other things too. There was more going on then I initially concluded. I think I trivialized the situation and now I am wondering if I also downplayed my behavior.

I'm 100% okay with him feeling whatever way he feels. He can get it all day.

But I can't do that to other people. So I have to figure if my behavior was inappropriate or what exactly elicited such a strong emotionial switch.

Plus, the girl EMBARRASSED the fukk out of herself. It was bad. If she ever calls me again I'd me surprised. I have never in my life seen a man pay such a beautiful woman so much dust. He was super patient but when that shyt ran out MY GOD his level of disinterest was almost cruel.

I really was trying to bring 2 beautiful people together but instead I caused chaos.



Why am I like this?

 

[™BlackPearl The Empress™]

I have to be honest with myself. How did I contribute to this situation?

Was I flirting? Did I use my powers for evil? Did she ever stand a chance?

Did I have one plan but once I got there sent out choosing signals that confused the situation?

Mmmmmm I remember seeing him. I remember thinking he was gorgeous. But I also remember being excited for her. I remember waiting for the spark between the 2 to happen and being all giddy. Of course, it never came but I assumed it was because she just didn't know how to really engage the situation and that he was being respectful. I doubt she anticipated how strongly she would be attracted to him. I certainly didn't.

I won't lie. I'm horny. I haven't had sex in years (by choice obviously). So maybe I got too close, made eye contact too long, maybe I was too complimentary. I specifically didn't touch. I remember thinking "make sure you move around" and "make sure you make space for them to engage."

The second interaction I KNOW I did nothing wrong. I was super intentional.

BUT at the end of the night I admit we did have a moment. This was after the drama. I won't go in to detail. It was there. Brief. But it was there.

I think maybe I did come on too strong. I think maybe I did send out signals unintentionally to get my jollies off. What I didn't anticipate was the affect that my energy would have on others. I guess I thought people would think "Oh that's just Pearl being her weird self" and write the behavior off as meaningless flirting or interpret it my general energetic disposition.

That was naive and short sighted of me. My social interactions are a little rusty I admit. I'm normally just mean to men because the annoy me 89.97% of the time.

I have huge energy. I gotta tone that down. I was stressing folks out.



However, in my defense, no one ever knew my plan except me so there should have been NO expectations. Even IF I was flirty, all feeling that transpired were completely organic and I made it a point many many times to allow room for others to shine.

It's more about being accountable to myself than others.



C'est la vie.

Anyway, I leave it there. I'll make a few comments on he socials to feel her out. I'd rather not lose a friend if I can avoid it.

And I'll work on getting him to blow my back out and knock these ankles loose in 2026.

 

[™BlackPearl The Empress™]