I need some help from my brehs still up. Got a date tomorrow with a chick I really like. She's different from most chicks I feel. Its a white chick, so sorry mom and all the internet nikkas I'm letting down, but I digress...
She's cool as fukk. We don't really work together, but she's in the same company. I'm a manager at our one store and she works at our sister store. We have similar interests. I love reading and writing. She does also and is a journalism major. Last time I saw her, I invited her to the little birthday party we have every year for like 4 employees that have birthdays right before Christmas. We were vibing and what not. But I blacked out that night and woke up at Curlys house (see page 562-563 for reference) and me and Curly were both confused how we got there. Me and her had breakfast and were trying to piece together the night. Apparently this new chick took us there and dropped us off late as fukk after the party died down.
I'm thinking...she's already seen me at my worst. I mean I was a hot mess that night my dudes. I was trying to get at this one chick who I've been close to smashing in the past But her dude was there and it was just super ignorant. Somehow after all the fukkery and her dropping me and my fukk buddy off at her house, she still is interested enough to fukking go out with my dumb ass.
I don't wanna fukk this up. I don't date. I got hurt by a chick who was my best friend bout 3 years ago and since then I've been harder on hoes than any muhfukka I know. But I want something more at this point. I'm 26. It's cold out. This chick has a fat ass and a warm smile. Not only that but goddamn she's adorable and just approachable. I like being able to fukk whoever, but I don't think that's what's best for me right now. Some stability would be nice. Someone to regularly check me. I don't wanna anticipate too much from this broad but I really like her.
But it's our first date. And a nikka gotta pay rent in a week n a half. Trying to keep the whole escapade under 50 or 60. But. What could we do that would be fun but leave time for conversation. I wanna pick this chicks mind before I really decide I wanna get at her. I just like how upfront she's been with me about shyt. I'm just kind of scared of her reaction if I tell her about my fukkery. But I'm willing to take a L. More than willing. I'm tired of just fukking chicks. That shyt is for the birds real shyt. Like...I would love something more. I just don't wanna fukk up and push something that isn't really there.
Women, man. Wish I was like Hov sometimes. The majority of my problems are female related. And mostly my fault
She's cool as fukk. We don't really work together, but she's in the same company. I'm a manager at our one store and she works at our sister store. We have similar interests. I love reading and writing. She does also and is a journalism major. Last time I saw her, I invited her to the little birthday party we have every year for like 4 employees that have birthdays right before Christmas. We were vibing and what not. But I blacked out that night and woke up at Curlys house (see page 562-563 for reference) and me and Curly were both confused how we got there. Me and her had breakfast and were trying to piece together the night. Apparently this new chick took us there and dropped us off late as fukk after the party died down.
I'm thinking...she's already seen me at my worst. I mean I was a hot mess that night my dudes. I was trying to get at this one chick who I've been close to smashing in the past But her dude was there and it was just super ignorant. Somehow after all the fukkery and her dropping me and my fukk buddy off at her house, she still is interested enough to fukking go out with my dumb ass.
I don't wanna fukk this up. I don't date. I got hurt by a chick who was my best friend bout 3 years ago and since then I've been harder on hoes than any muhfukka I know. But I want something more at this point. I'm 26. It's cold out. This chick has a fat ass and a warm smile. Not only that but goddamn she's adorable and just approachable. I like being able to fukk whoever, but I don't think that's what's best for me right now. Some stability would be nice. Someone to regularly check me. I don't wanna anticipate too much from this broad but I really like her.
But it's our first date. And a nikka gotta pay rent in a week n a half. Trying to keep the whole escapade under 50 or 60. But. What could we do that would be fun but leave time for conversation. I wanna pick this chicks mind before I really decide I wanna get at her. I just like how upfront she's been with me about shyt. I'm just kind of scared of her reaction if I tell her about my fukkery. But I'm willing to take a L. More than willing. I'm tired of just fukking chicks. That shyt is for the birds real shyt. Like...I would love something more. I just don't wanna fukk up and push something that isn't really there.
Women, man. Wish I was like Hov sometimes. The majority of my problems are female related. And mostly my fault
