You’ll probably never want to truly settle down with one woman. They will always bore you eventuallyIt was ugly out here for a while. Just fine hoes, meaningless sex, intolerable company, and bad af women I was coming across.
Then I met one, fine af, top 2 women personalities I've ever met (and only probably saying that cause I'm reluctant to admit otherwise) and we're ROCKING.
She was adamant about not coming to her house in the beginning and I played the same role. We hung out like 6 times in the first 12 days after actually kicking it the first time. Knew of each other prior.
I loved her look, standards, conversation, morals, body, personality how in sync we were in all that. Getting TOO drunk with her early on had me fighting to keep her in my life after embarrassing displays
Overcame BS, finally invited her over - folded her up and shyt got stronger. Around 3 months I told her I wanted you be exclusive - wild cause all the time as spent and how things we're going, screamed exclusive. ( felt the need to verbalize cause I started rejecting hoes)
I don't when, where or why but now - I'm indifferent af. Possibly cause we work togetherand I was used to seeing her being the one everybody wanted and that changed once everybody went to WFH and I saw her busted for like a month straight. I wish I wasn't shallow cause wtf, she checks all boxes. To the point, I wasn't even checking for other women.
Now here we are wrapping up month 4 and idk. And it might not even be her. I'm getting better, these hoes letting me know I'm fine - the shots I shoot don't miss. I got women throwing themselves at me and I'm like damn - do I wanna continue the life I've lived my whole life or do I want to give this situation an honest attempt.
Took shawty to a game tonight and can honestly say this the first time I didn't enjoy being in her presence. I'm an a$$hole so when I'm upset I'm rude and condescending but with her, I noticed I shut down to prevent further damage. That's what happened tonight - through the game, car ride all that...silence.
Went to a bar, after that... bartender shooting and she half naked. I'm like do I really wanna leave this lifestyle. Talk to me![]()
That’s the perils of being a player when you’re younger. That shyt don’t leave you. It’s the same reason you cant turn a hoe into a housewife. Cant turn a playa into a papa

and I was used to seeing her being the one everybody wanted and that changed once everybody went to WFH and I saw her busted for like a month straight. I wish I wasn't shallow cause wtf, she checks all boxes. To the point, I wasn't even checking for other women.



