Initially, it was 100% that, but now it's more like I don't even feel like there's a problem if she were to contact me. I just wouldn't pursue anything and I'd be like nah I'm good. It's like any chance of romance is dead, but we can still be cool. Like I feel like it's in my nature to wanna help people with whatever, but I'm not gonna force it upon anybody or do it if I don't want to. The only thing that I'm honestly unsure about is how I'm gonna react in my second relationship cuz I feel like this past one is keeping me hesitant and who knows if I'll appear or act that way. It at least makes me feel a little more secure in my line of thinking because the feeling has already been felt so I can tell myself to chill and not over analyze. There will obviously still be moments of iffiness due to the strangeness of it all to me. It honestly isn't a big deal anymore though to me. Right after the relationship ended, I was kinda beating myself over the head about it and wish it never happened, but now I'm fine with it. It's really time to get my career, finances and living conditions in order anyway.