I am Strong!!!
Sometimes I wonder if I should revisit ancient memories in my life, not because of oh no the historical pain or discomforting moments, merely because how could I have been so dim-witted. So I shall get out the shovel and dig up past chronicles of my life, all raw and uncut, the moments that gutted me, the anchor I had to carry for years that I wouldn't wish on my worst adversaries. Nevertheless, the mess I went through gave me a message; the tests I went through gave me a testimony. It is why I always try to not condemn others, if you have never walked a day in their shoes then you have no understanding of the decisions they made or the burdens they carried.
And now I shall begin. The first time I was cheated on, while it did leave me impaired and had me questioning many things; very quickly I got over it. It was the equivalent of a tropical storm / fender bender, in that my foundation was shaken a modest amount, however I was able to rebuild myself pungently and more enhanced than before filled with new found wisdom and battle scars. Conversely the second time was like a Category 5 Hurricane / Total Write Off, that came out of nowhere with strong winds and gutted me from the inside out, left me a shell of my former self, everything I rebuilt in my life was destroyed and left in ruins, however many many many many valuable lessons were learned in life.
I remember the first time my mother ever met cheater #2 (C#2), later that evening my mother who is very religious told me that she felt something in her spirit and that I should not be in a relationship with this girl. Of course I thought I knew more than my mother and my stubbornness and “you don’t know her like I do” took over. Months went on honeymoon/infatuation stage blah blah blah, Mother tells me how a co-worker at her work told her that she had a dream and I was in it and I was with someone who was literally setting out to destroy his life, someone with a demonic spirit. Now when my mom told me this I fully laughed and thought this was the craziest thing I have ever heard. I have never met this woman in my life; she doesn't know me or C#2 so how is she out there spreading falsified information and slander? So on one side was my mother telling me I should not be with this person, and the other side someone I never met telling my mother I’m with someone who will bring me nothing but pain and destruction to my life, yet all I did is laugh and thought I was way ahead of the game and then…...
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or act bitter .. but 
Bhris Brown made a hit!!" while she was done talking. I just was in a state of shock like 
. Granted I didn't actually do anything, it was still disturbing how unaffected she was as she just kept smiling and laughing talking about "He's sooo mad 
". She's there telling him oh it was just someone who was showing her something for homework and that she went away to do something blah blah. All the while I was literally laying my head on her stomach laughing. She then got up and went into the hallway cupcaking. 
