See nikkas. This dude knows exactly what I mean. I got 3 friends. Maybe 4. And recently cut off another one. One friend is the dude who snitched on the other dude in the story i laid out before so you can imagine wwhat he like. My friends are some of the most boring nikkas. If we go out they aint doing nothing but posting. It makes it impossible for me to even try and do anything cause I feel like their lack of charisma or "swagger" brings mine down. i cant tackle a group of 3 girls alone without getting cockblocked. I love them nikkas but I hate em. While the one I recently cut off is a nikka I should roll with but we just lost touch after Highschool. He on that fraud shyt, making dirty money and living and hes just kinda changed to fulfill a persona of sorts.
I am interning right now with 12 months left....21 years old in 4 weeks and just finished my third year of school. Its come to the point where I am lonely enough to just say fukk it and hibernate. im talking not even top up my prepaid fone account again for the next couple months. Just ghosst on everyone. All my college buddies (not friends except 1 really) will graduate without me and truth be told I dont even identify with them like that anyways. For starters I'm the only negro.
Snapshot of my life is literally waking up at 6:20. Treking to work at 7. Working out from 8:30 to 10. Working from 10-7. And then going back home....and logging onto the coli.
If you guys were living such a life I dont think youd be so comfortable with so called "solitude". Maybe you can survive but when you know that theres potential out there why be just comfortable? Issue is without a car and parents that dont wanna let me use their I cant doo much about it sadly especially in this climate where I have nikkas i went to school with my age that are driving G35's and A4s with fraud money. These hoes aint checking for a nikka if they gonna have to walk or take bus to see em in this day. It is what is is. Thats what I meant earlier with my freedom being strapped.
Since Mid June I can honestly say that besides 3 of my best friends (one of them being the guy who snitched in the earlier story) I dont get love from nobody. From the opposite sex like I said earlier, since that one chick went travelling for the rest of the summer around June and with other girls having technical difficulties or being waste I have no bytches either. You can call it thirst but it aint even close. I'm good. But for how long?
The girl travelling was a minor set back cause every time I do my thing and proactively build...some sort of hurricane just destroys the infrastructure and its back to ground zero. It's gotten to the point where I say why bother which is good because concerning yourself with tryna get women is a quick way to find yourself doing foolish/simpish actions I would imagine.
Whatever, I;'m just chillin
hey bro, not sure this will help but here goes.
First, its kinda like when people (and i'm sure those in this thread in particular) say that you need to work on yourself and improve yourself... like if you a fat nygga, hit the threadmill and get slim... if you a skinny nygga, hit the weights and get swoll... if you a nappy headed nygga, brush ya head and get waves... if you can't dress, pay attention to them usher, ne-yo, common ass nyggas and see if their style in clothes is somethin you can see yourself in... so in that same sense,
if you can't move around for shyt because you don't have a vehicle, well you know what you gotta do. And if its something where you can't afford a car, or your own spot, or relatively nice clothes/accessories... then that just means you need a better job or you just gotta suck it up until the internship expires and you hopefully get picked up by the/a company (or whatever) for actual good pay. Easier said than done I know, but still. Is your internship paid btw?
2nd, i myself have nyggas i play vid games with, nyggas i lift weights with, hoop with, and a couple nyggas who i can do all the above and roll to the clubs/parties to tag team/triple team these females with. They all my nyggas but they don't all have the same level of interest or mindset in everything that i'm about across the board. Kinda like different habitats, and the nyggas i be on xbox live with aint always the same folks i see in the gym or the weight room or at work or at the barbers, etc.
Point is, if you lookin to expand your social circle, well think about what you like to do bro! You a hooper? Go find some places to hoop at during weekends and you gonna chop it up with the hoopers. Same with the gym you currently workout at, chop it up with them nyggas, join in on they workouts, etc. You in college? see if anyone doin some flag football leagues or intramural shyts. if you go to the barbers, join in on them convos... and then once you become cool with any/all of them nyggas ask them nyggas where the hoes be at, what live events be goin down and hopefully them nyggas will be respectable enough for you to roll with. Basically, my social circle(s) came about through me indulging in shyt that appealed to me (that made me happy or whatever) and being open to engaging with others who had similar interests as me.
Finally, even for the times that my couple nyggas that i roll to the club with aren't with me... it didn't really matter because i didn't/don't feel i need clubs/parties to meet females anyway. Like others have said, just living your life, doing you, will have you encounter females. You just gotta not give a fukk (or, as others say, have "confidence") and seize the moment when it presents itself. See a female at walmart or at chilis or at a gas station or whatever... fukk it, if you take care of and improve upon yourself (as mentioned earlier) go on and talk to her ass... cuz more often than not she is not gonna mind a well groomed, well chiseled, good lookin ass nygga approaching her... its just a matter of other factors like is she with her girlfriends, or have a bf, or is just having a bad day/in a bad mood. And even if its any of the above or something else, its whatever, because they'll be others..
i must go to some events and join extra cirricular clubs this time round and get some friends to go parties with.im entering my 20s soon breh cant waste my youth anymore i already feel like im doing so now 
but gotta start somewhere..shyt this could be my last oppurtunity when i start working id imagine it will be even harder to make friends at work than at school
