in this day and age every women has so many options, even the women with 4 kids out of wedlock has more options than the man with his ish together that looks good i just don't care anymore. And to me you counter, realize that women change in a flash you may say one thing and it may upset her. I just literally don't care anymore, the last few women I've messed with once they messed up that was it, I don't give another opportunity
Emp... i used to be JUST like you doggie. I really did. I never assumed good when it came to women cuz i always was always under the impression that they were up to no good; i didn't trust none of them.
While most men ought to harness that mentality... i'm too stubborn and stuck on my own damn optimism nowadays to slide with that mindset.
I know how true the bell rings regarding the "multiple guppies in the pond" mantra... but being with my girlfriend now and getting tired of how her safety net of reliability has made things soo...
... mundane and routine. Essentially a bore fest!
Can you believe it? I'm leaving a good woman who would do no wrong, always available and cares for me more than my own mother... for a young, vivacious, lusty and fun chick that doesn't even have her shiit together yet?
(Let me reiterate that before my current GF, i got played by my last chick and that put me into "Mr. Philander Don Juan Casanova" standard and felt entitled to myself to just slang the wang; that was the most exciting time of my life. Au contraire to how long it would have lasted, it kept me driven in all aspects of life; there was literally, and i apologize for the cliche of sorts - no shame in my game.)
As for what i'm doing now, I know for a FACT that this shiit is gonna bite me in the ass. I don't even want to make this one a side piece project. I want her! I feel compelled to delve into this one full steam and dream ahead and make her the project that my minds garage needs to fix, modify from the ground up and make the ultimate road machine. And i plan on riding this one the fukk out and feel accomplished when its done (that is, at least my desire at this point - see? Something to strive for).
That aside, the girl never got back to me. (I know, i know what y'all sayin', but i'm not giving us, especially considering the circumstances and how we had such a great time last weekend - she kissed me twice and i'm dumbfoundedly hooked. Been there, done that, but now i feel like I won't mess this one up because as the maxim states, "If i knew then what i knew now". Well --- i know now and i can't lose).
Like you said, i may have said something in the duration of the text that may have upset her or made her turn a blind ass cheek. Or... uncharacteristically of you... can "I" just give her the benefit of the doubt? I know we all have our opinions, approaches/methods on how we tread the world of date-dom, but i was always taught to never give up. How can this not apply to something you're so attracted to?
I'm a taurus... so perhaps, it's just the stubborn nature of my astronomical attribute (if you believe in that, i stubbornly do. LoL).
Irregardless of what's been said, the year and the half that i was with my girlfriend, i missed the shiit like this; the uncertainty and anxiety and thrill of being with somebody new (and i know what i'm doing now is, albeit typical, still taboo for me because i'm usually the committed type).
Reincar/Gems Thread Patrons, father forgive me for I am sinning, but i was damn near obsolete from this thread and my life was in full android mode and i don't want that kind of consistency. They say variety is the spice of life... and although i'm playing with fire, it keeps my endorphins and testosterone revving.
Can you blame a vigga for that? I wanted to feel young again.
And to do so with arm candy...
... that's making me chase the fukk out of her. OJ in a Bronco.
Does anybody feel the way I do or is this too unorthodox and time consuming for many?
Let's make this some interesting dialogue fam. Tell me i'm crazy. Are there cats that want to take their game to a whole 'other level and experiment the same way?
I see this kind of dynamic as progression. And in a sense, reminiscent to an embedded sociologist seeking to find qualitative answers by collecting data to support his theories on dating.
I am that student creating his life's dissertation.
And i have my subject.
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