I swear 3rd verse of Runaway perfectly describes my last relationship
Never was much of a romantic
I could never take the intimacy
And I know I did damage
Cause the look in your eyes is killing me
I guess you are at an advantage
Cause you can blame me for everything
And I don't know how I'mma manage
If one day you just up and leave



I never even liked that album but by some crazy coincidence I had this song come on shuffle yesterday
Anyway it happened and I never thought I'd feel this bad when she leaves, but now I know. I guess I could never really connect on emotional level like that, and she was always talking how she needs me to involve more emotionally because it's important for her that I do, and whenever I did I would do that emotional shyt for like 2 days max and go back to my old macho bullshyt attitude
It's not that I didn't care for her, I really did, I guess I just didn't really love her even after a year of relationship, I think I needed a bit more time, but she wasn't having it. I'm not sure I was even in love brehs

If anything she was a HUGE habit to me, in a sense that I liked spending time and being with her, I just never felt in love like that
I'm not sure why is that so, I'm not usually cold n distant type of person, but last time I was really feeling someone took me only like 6 months but long distance ruined that one so
