I guess I should update everyone on my love life.
Over the past year I've been seeing a chick on and off. It pretty much had a few phases:
Phase 1: Friends with benefits. I was having my cake and eating it too. Led to a lot of arguments. I'm mature so I said let me go ahead and make this official. Maybe that will make things better. So enter...
Phase 2: Officially together. Some good times here and there but mostly realized that the same problems we had before were still around. Plus, I learned this chick is crazy and disrespectful. Never before in my life have I wanted to call my gf a bytch and snap on her but here I was feeling that type of anger. I deaded it after two months which leads me to...
Phase 3: Post break-up. We still see each other every day because of school so I can't avoid her. She says she understands its over but then makes pleas to get back together. Every now and then she catches me in a vulnerable moment and I consider it. I play into it, we go into phase 1 again. The minute she acts up, I'm reminded why I broke up with her and end it again. This cycle keeps continuing.
Going forward... I'm so happy that I've finally manned up and said no to the back and forths. No more "I love yous." No more late night drunken sex. Nope.
I realized that I need to match my actions with my words and really be consistent. I used to blame her for being crazy and manipulative but it's me. I'm the man and I had to realize that no woman should ever dictate my actions.
So yeah that's my update. I'm a lil embarrassed that a savvy OG like me got caught up like this
but I'm always down to share my failures in hopes that the brehs in here can learn from them. Now keep in mind that this chick is FINE AS fukk. Long hair, slim, big boobs like I like. But she's crazy, has daddy issues, and is selfish.
Funny thing about all of this is now I have so much clarity on what I REFUSE to deal with in relationships going forward. My fuse is also shorter. I no longer entertain chicks I don't see myself being serious with. I've learned that there's no reason to lie to women to try to protect their feelings. Just keep it real and hold yourself accountable for what you say. The women respect you more for doing so and everything works out better in the end.
then I went home
once fall/winter hits tho, lots of lonely women looking to get drafted once cuffing season hits. im going to try to finesse some home cooked meals and box out of this shyt. maybe some christmas gifts 
