She said it was nice for the sake of a reaction. Which is true. I see all the fukk bois around and I thought I deserved better because I was being good to her. I should just be good to bytches because its my character and not because I want to get something in return. I could at least agree with that and thinking back to all my failed relationships I did that shyt all the time. Shes still a goofy ass for simply not telling me about it months ago because its something that sooooo easy to change but...its life.
I pretty much put it all out there and cleared all my demons and by the end fo the night she said she doesn't respect me any more

like newsflash nikkas do have feelings. Its over with her, I'm pretty sure of that at least. I asked her multiple times do you feel anything for me and she said no multiple times. Said she would try to make it work if she felt any thing. IDK man I got the feeling she wasn't being truthful about it, she cried on my shoulder. I don't fukking know man, its such a fukking clusterfukk.