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I don't like the drawbacks I have in life. I hate how my tongue feels restrained when I go to talk. I just want shyt to feel normal. Im trying to get women and work on weight issues.![]()
I'm not on that tip. Im always mellow. I mean I'm my only barrier. I gotta get out of my own wayJust let if flow breh. Be ya self, just don't say nothing disrespectful.

i know that feeling. thats good though; you understand the gameI don't get immediately get excited When I talk and flirt with women. For some reason I just assume they're gonna pump fake like usual
I'm starting to just not get my hopes up anymore. All the allure and luster I had with women is dead. They're people. Not prizes to me. And I needed that. I'm just doing shyt that makes me feel great. Threw out old clothes, buying new ones.i know that feeling. thats good though; you understand the game
when you get excited you get let down
@Biggums this is the 5th time Ive told her to clean up after herself and she keeps promising to change. Even gave her a main closet so i can throw her random items in there when she leaves them out.
@TRUEST she works security and likes her job.
I pay all of the bills.She wanted cable and said she would pay but doesnt. She doesnt have a car and never has in the time ive known her. She wrecked my Camry with 30k miles on it (DUI) and my pops bailed her out. The first time my fam met her it was her coming from Dekalb County Jail.
My Dad had to pay our rent last month cause im maxed out
Did I mention she doesnt give head?

I don't like the drawbacks I have in life. I hate how my tongue feels restrained when I go to talk. I just want shyt to feel normal. Im trying to get women and work on weight issues.![]()
When I'm angry I have no hesitation. Just cause I'm hesitant, it doesn't prevent me from putting a disrespectful broad in her place. I'm nice and all, but I'm no pushover. I worry to much about being interesting with women but who cares. I feel if she likes me enough she'd find whatever I say interesting.My tongue has no restrain I speak what I feel in a respectful manner but you have me fukked up thinking I won't put u in ur place either
I'm very blunt no matter how respectful I am cuz I have the no fukks given attitude I ain't gonna sugar coat shyt to a female when I know damn well she play more games than the MLB
I treat u how u treat me simple as that

Mann listen...

How are other areas of your life?I need some guidance brehs I took a L that kinda fukked my head up. My whole view on women has been shifted tremendously and I don't think I can go back to how I was. To behonest I'm not fully over it and prolly won't be for awhile but I'm at a place where I can move on now but I'm now dealing with some weird anger or disdain. Not because it didn't workout but because I feel like i had shyt happen that I didn't deserve happen to me. Also feeling disrespected. Also feeling like my intelligence is being insulted I can admit I'm a little inexperienced but I'm not dumb or that inexperienced in life to not know when something ain't right.
So now I'm walking around carrying this distrust and fear when I talk to other women, kinda making me not even want to fukk with them really. Don't really want to give them the chance to have me looking like a clown or a fool and I don't want to be that vulnerable again. Also I cant seem to bring myself to be that sweet charming cat I normally am to women. Its like I don't want to go so hard and go out my way trying to be a decent breh if all I'm going to get is what I got. I really feel like I got a lot of grief for no reason. I could see if I was a foul nikka but all I did was be good. I don't want to be #HoH but everytime I think about everything in it's entirety knowing everything it got me feeling all kinds of angry.
It's like I can't look at women or relationships the same at all and it's making me want to move in a very different way. I can really see why some dudes move with that coldness towards women now. It's hard trying to fight that #HoH feeling and that's not who I want to be but Im feeling like I got did dirty for no reason and I didn't deserve it.
I just want to feel like I use to feel but I don't think that's ever coming back. It's like that mental connection I forged is made of diamond and cannot be broken at all. That's why it's fukking with me so bad. It's one hell of a connection and it crushed me.
I'm carrying some anger brehs and I can't point it at the right place because it melts me.